The journey ends

With the end of my training comes mixed feelings.

Relief - Thank god its finally over
Joy - Finally! I can go out, i have time to myself and i dont have to wake up at 7.30 in the morning anymore. Oh, and i dont have to walk around in the sun anymore.

But

Theres also a tinge of .. i dont know..sadness?? I will miss the trainees i've been working with. The makan sessions, the ronda Tesco sessions, the ronda Penang sessions, the sit-in-Popular-and-read-magazines sessions, the making-sneaky-phone-calls-from-the-office-during-lunchtime sessions (okay, so only the girls did that), the pretend-to-look-busy-while-talking sessions, the hide-in-the-guardhouse-or-canteen sessions..alot of things to look back on and smile. And I will in a way miss the workers, yes, they are very nice to us .. my boss and his neverending stories..The fruit fiestas we have in the office (think 30 durians, 3 crates of rambutans, mangosteens).. the KFC tea times, the Pelita breakfasts, the McDonald ice creams..Though I'm glad its ended (finally) I dont regret going.

The road less travelled

I like taking drives on a long, clear road.

With just me in the car and a stack of good chillout music to keep me company. I could go on forever.

I'm not heading to anywhere in particular, just driving. And driving. Going on and on to nowhere. Feels good, y'know? I dont know what im leaving behind, or where im going, but it feels good.

Just to be getting somewhere. Leaving something behind, going forward to something new.. Just going.

Too bad petrol is now 1.52 a litre. This expensive habit can only be saved for the rainy days.

Did anyone realise that this is still Penang? Cos i didnt :). Somewhere in Balik Pulau, when a lunch break turned into a 3 hour 'long kai'. Im at the top of a hill, at restaurant. I think its called the view? Pretty nice place, with a great breeze. So if you're really bored, go look for it. If youre using a really old car though, take my advice and walk up. Unless you want to risk sliding down 100 meters, which is what we almost did. This is what bored and lazy trainees do, when work is about to end. We went on impulse to Balik Pulau, where one of the trainee lives. To eat durians (she has her own dusun) and rambutans and pineapples and mangosteens etc etc. Pineapples do NOT grow like potatoes. I didnt know that either. There is no such thing as a pineapple tree.

Psychotic

I was bored at work.

Wait a minute, im downright sick of work. Especially with all the trainees gone.

Sigh

This is what you do when you're bored.

You Are 50% Normal(Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

I was right all along. Im weird. Oh well.. goddesses cant be normal, can we?

hahahhahhha.
Oh, by the way... i just fell in love with this word.

Psychotic

Dont you think?? Psychotic bitch, psychotic dude, psychotic cat... so many uses...

Musical Baton

I know, i know.. it took that long to get this done. But when you no longer have a wifi spot and the pc runs on windows 98 with no speakers.. how can you pass on a musical baton when you cant here anything?? Right??

Anyway, here goes...

Total volume of music on my computer:
Wait.. lemme count .. 2.14GB plus another 3.28GB OH MY THATS A DAMN TOTAL OF 5.42GB!!!Now i really have to sit down and go through all my music files.. i doubt i've even heard all of them more than five times. Damn, thats alot of space taken up..

Last Cd purchased:
Cant remember.. would've have been years ago. I am a staunch supporter of piracy and praise the dude who invented the cd burner. Why spend forty bucks buying a cd when i only want twelve out of the eighteen songs? Why not spend a dollar on a blank cd, rip and burn whatever you want and take that extra thirty nine bucks to keep your belly full for the rest of the week.. logical right??? HAIL BLANK CDS AND DVD BURNERS!!! The last time i bought a cd was when i was sixteen. Before the age of cd burners, and before the age of broadband - Red Hot CHilli Peppers : Californiacation

Song playing right now:
The Smashing Pumpkins - 1979. My taste in music is very varied. Dig deep enough into my hard drive, you'll find everything ranging from Michael Buble to Four Strings to Frank Sinatra to Travis. From Christina Aguilera to Sarah Maclachlan, Diana Krall to Green Day and Oasis...chillout music to anime themes... anything goes. Maybe thats why i have so much music ... hmmm..

Five songs that mean alot to me:
Okay.. this is hard.. ummm...in no particular order:1)Alanis Morissette - Ironic. I dont know why, but i just love this song. Maybe the earliest songs you know make the most impact? But i just like the fact that its well so... ironic:)
Old man, just turned ninty eight; won a lottery, then died the next day;
Its a death row pardon, two minutes too late.
And isnt it ironic?? Dont you think??

2)Puddle of Mudd - Blurry / System of a Down - Chop Suey. Reminds me of the mad days i had back in sixth form with the girls and the guys, but mostly with Terri and Vila. We were a category of our own. I can now look back and laugh.

3)Green Day - Time of Your Life.
Another turning point;
a fork stuck in the road.
Time grabs you by the wrist;
directs you where to go.
So make the best of this test
and don't ask why.
It's not a question
but a lesson learned in time.
It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

This would basically be my thinking right now. If it wasnt, id have jumped off the uni library during my first sem.

4) Leanne Rimes - Soon. At least, i think thats the title. I was going through a rough patch, and it did NOT help that Mix Fm played sappy love songs every night. I remember the lyrics when something like i'll have shed my last tear soon, I'll get over you soon, i'll make it throught the night without you soon..(independent, huh?)..till you realise she's singing 'soon as the mountains turn to rivers, soon as the seas turn into sand, soon as the sun comes up at midnight', thats how soon. And till then, i'll just pretend that i'm okay and wait for that someday soon. Damn, its a phobic song. Think sit by the radio pathetically in tears. So if you're miserable, dont listen to mix fm cos it will probably make you feel worse.

5) Frank Sinatra - LOVE. I just like it, and i like his voice. Called me old fashioned, im a Frank Sinatra person. And im still waiting for the rest of my V'day song....

Five people im passing the baton to:
Jon
Drey
Michelle
Justin
My brother. which is doubtful he ever will, but hey might as well give it a try.

There you are, Tzelin.. the musical baton, successfully carried on. Cheers!

Milk good for health??

Heres a rather nasty shock to the system. Early this morning before going to work, i poured myself my usual bowl of cereal and milk. I noticed that someone hadnt shut the fridge door properly, so figured the milk wouldnt be cold enough, no biggie, i can survive. But nothing perpared me for the intensely rude shock i got when i shovelled the first large spoonful into my mouth and then realised that the milk had gone sour. OH MY. If you've never had a big mouthful of sour milk, you will never know how bad it tastes. I obviously didnt swallow, just kept it in my mouth till i could get to a sink and spit it out. But it smelt and tasted just too bad. When i spit out my mouthful of cereal, the twisties i ate last night came out with it.

UGH. I dont ever want to go near milk again. Lesson : Even milk in an unopened carton can be sour. STAY AWAY FROM MILK! I did not need such a bad taste in my mouth so early in the day. Sigh..

Oh by the way... im in the office.. secretly going online while everyone has gone for lunch. Sixteen more days to go.. MUahahahahahha

OMFG

Yes, i have work tomorrow. Yes, i know its late. Yes, im still awake.

Because my hairdryer wont work. Everybody knows that you cant sleep in an air conditioned room with your hair wet. And if you didnt know, i bet your mum knows. Or your grandmother. Cos i've heard it often enough from everybody. So im heeding the advice about head colds and bone aches and im sittin out here at two in the morning waiting for my head to dry.

OMFG, im so bloody tired now. Actually, ive been bloody tired since last week. To the point where walking on the under construction second floor of my site project gave me such a bad feeling of nausea/vertigo i felt like falling off the building. Which would have been a bad thing cos 1)there would be an awful big mess to clean up and 2)my mom only gets 50 grand from IJM, and i think im definitely worth more than that. I will stay away from the edges.

I need to get a new phone. Im currently using a borrowed relic from the past. An ancient Nokia 3310. Remember the times when it was such an in thing?? Yea, well.. its sad to have a phone that doesnt fit into my pocket anymore, and rattles - i believe there is something loose inside, im only hoping that it wont explode while im on it.

I need a new phone, dammit!!And i want to eat my maggi goreng ayam tambah telur atas.

My project manager has gone to Europe for holidays.. with his whole family. He unfortunately doesnt take temporaroly adoptive kids. The guy he left behind in charge is a bitch.

I am Princess Leia?

Take the quiz: "What Star Wars Character Are You?"

Leia Organa
You are hot headed and very stubborn.

Yes, i was bored.

So apparently im a Princess Leia. Or i could have been Darth Vader.(??)Or Lando Calrissian. The Princess Leia with the two buns on her head. In the little slave bikini.

So, does anyone find it hot??

I have yet to get my ATM cards. Had to go all the way to town to get my ic done (which took like forever) then i stopped on the way at the nearest Public Bank, which made me wait. And wait. Then sent me to the branch where my account came from. ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE BLOODY ISLAND. Anyway, bla bla bla, got my license done, bla bla bla... went all the way to the other side of the island, sat on my ass for another half an hour and guess what. They tell me i need my birth cert!!!I dont even know the last time i touched the bloody thing.

Yes, i am officially broke.

SHIT.

I hope he gets run over by a lorry

This is exactly what is going through my head right now.

%*&^*@#$%

Was on my way to gurney, after having parked the car at our usual spot by the field. College Square, or Lebuhraya Maktab as some call it.Anyway, terri, see mun and i were on our way to gurney plaza for dinner when some fuckin bastard came from behind me on a bloody motorbike and snatched my bag. MY BAG. My bag, with my wallet and my handphone and my lip balm and an assortment of some other junk. The bag was a present, the wallet was a present, the tissue paper holder was a present. Im only thankful my camera wasnt in there as well. MY BAG. On the day i had my phone in it, on a day i actually had cash in it. Heres what you call shock - i dont recall it hapenning, i dont recall how it got snatched, i only remember the bastard riding off with it. And when i got to the police station in Pulau Tikus, my hands were still shaking. I now wish i had known what was happening, and given the bike a good kick.

&$(*##@!

There goes a perfectly good phone with a perfectly good digi line in it, a rather new wallet with my ic, license, atm cards, insurance cards, membership cards, photos, and CASH. Close to a hundred bucks. And when youre a student on a budget, its a hundred bucks i cant afford to lose.

Im still spitting curses in my head, and i hope he gets run over by a lorry. Of all the nerve. On minute i was holding my bag, the next minute it was gone. He yanked way too hard, i couldnt hold on, though i tried. And the fucker had the nerve to turn around and look back as he rode of with my bag. I hope he gets run over by an excavator.

Anyway, it took me almost two hours a file a bloody police report. Shows just how great our Malaysian police system is. Had to file one report at the district police station, who took forever to type it out, sell me a copy for four bucks and then send me over to the main police HQ in Patani Road. Where i had to wait another half an hour for someone to attend to me, and to retake my statement. Which he handwrote, and reasked me everything. Then he ran out of paper, so he counldt print out the letter until whoever it was whom he called came back with paper. So efficient.

I started out hungry on the way to dinner, completely lost my appetite after my bag got snatched. By the time the i finished (finally) making a report, i was about to die of hunger.

Only other news of interest : Went to watch a movie yesterday along with Chai, Terri, See Mun and Yu Ming. I have learnt a sneaky new way to obtain really good movie seats when the cinemas fully booked.

Highly recommended - watch it and laugh your self silly.

Two More Days

I managed to get onto my not so free wifi spot and this is what is found:

This pic captured my eye. The photo managed to show the contrast between the poor and the rich. The kid that gets his shoes shined and the baby asleep on the back of his mother who shines the shoes. The fat little sitting in the chair and the sleeping baby who might never have to luxury of drinking a big bottle of pepsi. The sad part? The chance of the little sleeping baby crossing over to the higher society isnt that high. Guess life isnt always that rosy.

More food for thought. Look at the determination in her face, the amount of effort he has to put in, the willingness for them to work together and not give up. Take away the superficial layer and the materialistic edge away from life as we know it, maybe this is what love is.

Two more days and there will only be three of us trainees left. Yup. Girl 1 has sucessfully completed her training and leaving us while the three of us are left behind. Sigh. I first stepped into the office not knowing what to expect, but im glad i met her and im sorry to see her go. Who knew that the four of us, from different parts of Malaysia, would meet here in IJM and get along so well to the extent that we skip work together, plan to meet up again, eat ice cream together and just hang out.. Do all sorts of nonsense together, shop together, drink coffee, eat nasi lemak, take wiered photos...
I guess this training will definitely be something i wont forget.

Sniff Sniff

Oh hell.. Im sick. Managed to wheedle out a holiday from my boss for all of us for Monday (Its supposed to be a replacement for Wesak Day; unfortunately not all holidays are recognised by construction workers. FYI, Wesadk Day celebrates the day Buddha was born, died and found enlightenment) unfortunately i somehow managed to contract a flu.

What started out as a sore throat on Saturday morning - i thought it was the effect of too much barbeque steamboat turned into a full blown flu by Sunday which has dragged on till today. So much for a holiday. So much for going out all day. I have a fever, a splitting headache, a nose that switches between runny and stuffed, a sore throat, a cough, watery eyes... the list goes on. In short, i have a flu. Arrgghhh. Whats the point of being sick when you cant take an off day cos youre already off??????

Sorry, I get really really unmanageable when i get sick. I want Jon...

Look before You Leap

Was browsing through my photos and found this. Taken a couple of years ago, when most of us we were still in school. Since form five, its been a ritual to go up to Mt Pleasure every year.

Today, the Pajero was here. So we snuck out (begged a staff actually) to let us follow him out to the admin centre. Maybe our pathetic faces were really effective cos he agreed and took us for a spin.

Went to admin. Nothing interesting there.

Went to a highway project. The second phase of the Jelutong Expressway. And once again, i prove just how little i look before i leap. It was extremly muddy (think reclaimed land that still sinks and springs back up everytime a lorry drivers over it) and girl 1 was without her safety shoes. So we were looking for the best way to get to the other side of the site where boy is (he doesnt care about his shoes and pants) when i spotted mounds of earth piled up along the side of the site. So i figured, hey thats not muddy and it runs all the way to the other side..maybe we can go through there. So i went and stepped into it. Big mistake. It felt a little mucky, like it wasnt solid. But i fiugred, hey it can hold my weight. Sort of. So i took a few tentative steps. Bigger Mistake. Think QUICKSAND. My whole bloody foot sank in till my ankle.. So i panicked and tried to hop out. Yet another mistake. My other food sank into the mud past my ankle (Oh, my shoes and jeans). I didnt know what to do so i made the split second decision to jump out of the muck. WIthout looking. And landed into a puddle of watery muck. I have no luck. The more careful girl 2 was behind me, where the earth was still relatively solid and the even more cautious girl 1 was standing firmly on land analyzing the situation. The rest of that evening, my feet were really really heavy. Black mud caked onto my shoes up to the ankles. Ewwww..

And all that happened in less the 2 minutes. Major embarrasment especially since there were workers right next to where i was. Only positive thing i can think of is at least i provide plenty of entertainment.

Mosquito Musketeer

Our so called work. This is what we do, when we're bored and we just have to get out of the office. We run wild around the site taking photos in pretence of actually doing something.

There are four of us trainees running around the site so the safety guard (we call him uncle safety) whom we were having a little chat with this evening has taken to calling us the four musketeers. With boy as the bad musketeer. Anyway, chinky china boy (he's a very nice boy though) has never heard of a musketeer, he doesnt know what one is and never came across the word before. So he was going like what?? mosquito?? what four mosquitos?? im not a bad mosquito...

The two of us laughed till our sides were about to crack and i was about to pee in my pants.

The 'bad mosquito'

Back to The Start

If you've noticed the posts are becoming rather sporadic its would be because someone has blocked me off the wifi spot. It wont accept my DNS add. Damn.

Its been a magical weekend. Nothing big, nothing special, but great. My baby has come.. and gone.. and its back to a new week of work. If you can call it work.

I've drunk three huge packets of milo today, which was quite an effort cos i dont like milo. And my stomach is now on the verge of bursting, filled with way, waay too much milo, and waay to much junk. Girl 1 was on sick leave today, so that left me and girl 2 (the rather lazy ones) and boy (he got his semangat back, so hes really enthusiastic now, damn). So we did alot of sitting today - at the office, in the guard house, at the canteen, at the little stall near the gard house, in the shade.. Anyway, for some reason today we've been offered lotsa free drinks.

Meal 1 : i went to the site canteen wth girl 2 and boy (standard) where i took my little packet of nasi lemak, not intending to drink anything. Then my site supervisor came along and went 'aiyo, not drinking anything ah?? come la, go get a drink..' . Then he buys milo. Okay, im thankful, i can live with a packet of milo.

Meal 2 : We did a little exploring and walked round the site. Then girl 2 and i decided to sit (too damn hot) at the guard house. Where we meet the guard.. who then decides to feed us some more at the little stall where he's havin breakfast. I TRIED to decline.. i said ive eaten, im not hungry, im not thirsty, its okay ..... didnt work. I ended up with another HUGE packet of milo. Which i drank till im sure i turned green.

Meal 3 : Lunchtime at the office - someone went to pangkor and brought dried cuttle fish.. which once again we ate. When i wasnt planning to eat anymore.

Meal 4 : girl and i walking around the site. Worker comes up to us with a plastic bag and gives it to us and says 'for you all'. We obviously say no thanks, its okay, we dont want it to which he replies 'if you dont want then i'll have to throw it away'. No choice.. another two big packets of milo and a packet of pisang goreng. Oh man. On a day im not even hungery.

Meal 5 : We go back to the office and someone just brought two bags of some chinese pastry. And we had to each have some (polite, you know?) cos these older people think all young people need food. And lots of it. OMG I CANT WALK ANYMORE.

I am never going to drink milo again. Most people lose weight when they start work.. stress, busy lifestyle bla bla bla.. Im pretty sure youre not supposed to gain more weight. Something doesnt seem right...

Things I Bet you Did Not Know

Did you know that one cement mixer truck can hold up to 5 cubic meters if concrete? And that it costs RM750 per truck? Or that fourteen twelve meter thirty two millimeter diameter bars weigh slighlty over a tonne. Bet you didnt.. Bet you also didnt know that a concrete nail is made of steel and that all vehicles leaving a construction site must have their wheels washed??Didnt think so.

This is what ive been learning. Though what relevence it is to me at the moment i have yet to find out.. but as my boss says, its all part of training and i'll thank him someday, cos no other training sites will bother to teach this much. But then again, he also says I talk alot (pandai cakap) and that im happy go lucky (im a first year student, im supposed to be happy, arent i?) so yea... Five more weeks to go and counting. I dont know whether to feel happy or sad. Happy cos i'll finally be free, sad cos it would mean the end of my hols. Whatever it is, i'll miss the mad times the four of us trainees had together.

Shit. He's too tired to call. I dont know whether its just my imagination or does this seem to happen really often?? Maybe i should start keeping track. Then I would have some sort of concrete proof and there will be no need for an argument, i can reason it out in my head. Or maybe i just shouldnt bother and go out more. Hmmm.. the possibilities are endless. Right now, going out more seems like the best option. Seems like its been ages since i had a good chill. Seems like ages since i had a good anything. A good meal, a good nights sleep, a good time, a good chat up with my girls, a good mamak session, a good starbucks session, a good workout.. Then again, when you do nothing but work nine hours a day, six days a week with limited social contact, you tend to lose your sanity somewhat.

Screw everything.

In five weeks time, i'll be let loose. Its time to stay up all night and paint the town red before i settle back into the routine of being Lisa, the wiered, lazy, messed up hair and perpetually late for class deans list student that cant speak Chinese yet is a Chinese. And may not be on the deans list for much longer. Once again, I'm gonna say screw it. Nothing will stop me from enjoying whats left of my hols.

Two more days till the my much awaited Sunday. Maybe tomorrow we'll go to Tesco to waste yet some more time. It rained this morning when we were on the site. For lack of anything to do, and cos we are lazy bums anyway, se ran across to tesco and spent the afternoon there :). I think im a bad influence.

New Number

ANNOUNCEMENT : I have changed my phone number

Yup.. picked up my new number yesterday.. pretty funky number too .. so you can now drop me a line at

0164455636

Been a rather busy few weeks..been running short on sleep for the past couple of days ( ten hours in two days?!? ). Hate workin saturdays. This whole hols has been a rather dissappointing one so far.. or maybe its cos it just doesnt seem like a holiday at all. I get less rest than in uni. In uni, you can at least skip classes when you need to sleep.. or when you dont feel like going. Down here, no such thing. Shit, i get up earlier now than i did during term time. Sigh. Lost what little drive i had to work. Seems the other three of em feel the same way though - we spent this afternoon sittin in KFC

The Roots

Oh will somebody just kill me right now and end my thoughts.

I have come to the roots of all evil - thought and feelings. Think about it, if we were all mindless zombies, we wouldnt think, we wouldnt feel therefore we wouldnt know and we wouldnt react. We wouldnt think depressing thoughts, we wouldnt feel depressed therefore we wouldnt commit suicide. We would feel jealous, wouldnt think up evil plans and wouldnt commit robbery and snatch thefts. So there you have it. The root of evil.

We should all be mindless zombies and stay content

Oh My..

Been having a really shitty headache since last night.

Ever went out for a night of chilling, had one too many shots of whisky, a few too many beers and way, way too much vodka, only to go home feeling like shit and having the worst hangover ever? The kind where the bass just wont stop playing and the world just wont stop spinning even thought youre lying still on your bed at home. The kind where the floor jsut dont seem solid anymore to the point where you feel seasick just standing there? Yea well, i have. And last nights killer headache was worse than that.

Snuck up on me last night, just as i was about to snuggle into bed with a good book. Then boom, my head starts splitting into two and spinning at the same time. *@#$. Completely ruined my night. Worse thing was it kept me up till around 3 last night, so woke up this morning feeling absolutely shitty. Still with a nagging headache. Which has accompanied me all day. And I still cant sleep.

ARrrghhhhh.

Ahhh...

Its Monday. And thanks to Labour Day, I have no work. Two days of break instead of one. Im telling you, you dont know how important weekends are till you work eight thirty to six, six days a week. Ive been working till i dont know the days of the week anymore, Fridays and Saturdays feel like any other day..

But, Ive spent the past few nights with my friends, had plenty of sleep and am now taking a breather from everything, to prepare myself for another week ahead. Sitting in my bedroom, all clean and cool, with the air conditioning on, music playing and a hot cup of tea... ahhh.. pure bliss..

Im singing praises to the person who came up with the idea of labour day.

Anyways, went up to buy wrapping paper in Lovely Lace Gurney Plaza today. Did you know they sell wrapping paper for RM5.50 per half yard!! Gosh, thats robbery. Its enough for me to eat lunch. Do some basic math; to wrap a smallish present would roughly equate to a large McValue meal complete with a McFlurry.

Belated Birthday

Oh my... I posted up Ishuet bday pics without posting Chais.. Sorry ah...

Hadnt any connection at that time so... never got around to doing it. But now with my * ahem * new wifi spot...

Anyway, Chais bday would have been in March, but since we waited for everyone to come back and settle down after the end of the second sem of uni, we did it almost a month late.

This would be the birthday girl.

And this would not be the birthday girl. Ishuet is just very proud of the cake she baked.

In the kitchen of the new house. We had Ishuets spaghetti instead of her moms. We still think her moms spaghetti tastes better, though...

And this would be all of us, gathered once again in her house. Happy Birthday Chai :)

My Doggy

Another integral part of my life - my dogs. See stupid dog on the left and smart dog on the right.

For as long as i can remember ive always had dogs. None as stupid as stupid dog, though. She's so stupid, every night when we feed the dogs, she runs to big dogs plate and gets chased away. Even though she has her own plate. Every night. She can dig under the fence and run out, then cant figure out how to get back in. She go bit by my guinea pig. Beat that. Let this be a lesson. Never do things on the rebound. It just doesnt work. (Shes a rebound dog)Not rebound guys, rebound shirts, rebound guinea pigs, rebound dogs. Cant ever be the same.

Anyways, thats Apple as stupid dog and Rex as smart dog. But i love them anyway.. and mini pinchers arent well known for being smart.

Everythings Better When Its Free

Guess what!!

I found a free Wifi Spot!!
*Thanks Chai*

I was MSN-ing with Chai one night when she told me she found a wifi spot in her room - her wifi switch is always on, mine is usually off. That night, i unplugged my laptop, switched on my wifi and started on a quest to find wifi in my house. Like a complete idiot, i walked around in semi darkness holding a laptop in the middle of the night in my house. Anyway, idiot or not, it paid out.

I found my wifi spot!

After walking through the whole house, stubbing my toe on something and freaking myself out cos a lizard ran across my path, i found my own little wifi spot in my bedroom. Should have just started searching there and saved myself the trouble. So now, I can once again go online from my bedroom!`:) Hahaha.....screw dial up where the connection speed is in kilobytes..One drawback though. The wifi only seems to appear at certain times. Namely sometime after midnight, every night. As Terri would say, 'Ghosts, maybe??'

The Yellow Mini Cooper

Today I was on my way home from work. The road i take, Jalan Masjid Negeri was, as usual, jammed. I was stopped at a traffic light, so i took a look out the window at the car next to me ( Yellow mini cooper wei... how can i not look??). Anyways, the road was slightly inclined down and as i stared out the window, i noticed the yellow mini cooper slide past me. And the first thing i thought was how on earth is the mini cooper sliding backwards when the road slopes down.
Then I felt a little funny.

It took a while before i realised my car was sliding forward.

I am selfish..

Its my 27th day of work. Im finding harder and harder to drag myself to work everyday and im finding less and less things to do. No drive. Nothing to look forward to, i guess. Things tend to get like this for awhile after he leaves. And i wish he hadnt. Yes, i know im selfish but i still dont see why he had to go. Oh well.. his choice.

Finally broke out of my coccoon though.. Counting the days till i can finally say goodbye to my job.. till he comes back.. and unfortunately till i have to go back to uni. Still faced with the difficult decision.. should i transfer? Will it be worth it?? Will it be better or worse?? I dont know... I cant say... Can only think.

I think im PMS-ing. I WANT TO BE SELFISH. I WANT HIM TO COME BACK

Its my 26th day of work

Todays been a rather odd working day. Happy dude, the most hardworking among the four of us has suddenly gone funny. Apparently no mood to do anything. We suspect he has a girl problem, but being the man he is he refuses to say anything. He just pretends to be happy but every now and then lapses into sudden moments of silence. Anyway, since he didnt feel like doing anything, we spent most of the day on site observing the latest changes and asking questions ... then in the canteen with our breakfast coffee... then to Tesco to get somethin to eat.... then we went for a little joyride down to the Jelutong expressway site..then to E-Gate to take photos and do nothing... to the guard house to chit chat with the safety dude.. then back to Tesco for drinks. Then we went back to the office.

I hope we have another day like this. Most enjoyable :)

Anyways, i did promise pics so...
This would be me in my very own safety helmet. And i get to keep it :)Yes, I know its a little too big.. but I have a small head, cant do anything about it. This pic was taken at the IJM concrete plant in Jelutong.

Yup... These would be our safety shoes. Solid and heavy (think steel toes - a car could roll over and you wouldnt feel it), its one heck of a chore walking to and fro from the site every day since i cant afford to drive. Its like wearing weights on your ankles...and its about all i can do to drag myself uphill after spendin half the day out in the sun.. even the contractors have noticed how black ive gotten... *sigh*

This is the view from one of the recently completed projects E Gate.. Its right next to the project im stationed at, so whenever we get bored, we come here to loaf around in the shade and take photos. As you can see, the views a rather pretty one...didnt think the coastal highway looked like this, did ya??

Did this all by myself..Took me quite some time to get everything perfect, and yes im very proud of my very first drawing done in the site office so im putting it up anyway

This is half of the site im on. It was taken a couple of weeks ago, so theres much more to be seen now... ground is done, and first floor comin up. Its hot and dusty... and the labourers work all day...Till I came here, i never new that much effort had to be put into building... And I still dont understand how they can work all day in the blazing heat cos after a while i feel like dropping. Now i carry an umbrella. I dont care if its looks stupid, its HOT!

Ishuet celebrated her 21st Birthday a little over a week ago.

Happy Birthday Shuet!! As usual, we gathered at her house to celebrate.. and we came home with our own souveniers. Ishuets place would be the only house where you celebrate her birthday and you come home with something for yourself :)

This would be what we came home with - bracelets. And our own plate.. with food... Ishuet's moms spaghetti rocks! For a few days in a row, i had it for dinner .. and im still not sick of it. Actually im gettin hungry now....

If you've noticed i havent been updating, its because Jon came back for his hols so ive been spending most nights with him (or with my girls) .. and he left to go back for his short sem yesterday morning :( And i miss him. I really, really miss him. Three weeks to go and counting..

Oh yea... if i look bad in the pic its cos its after a night of chilling...

Happy Dude

Theres a dude in my construction office training with me. A funny, happy dude.

Everytime i say something, he laughs. When I do something, he laughs. When i try to clamber overbeams, he laughs. When I walk to the site holding an umbrella(hey its hot, cant blame me), yup.. He also laughs. He even managed to crack up at my bosses attempt at making jokes. Such a happy dude.

He's really nice to all of us though .. and we have on various occasions managed to wheedle free drinks off him :) And for want of nothing to do, I get to hold the measuring tape .

I think he finds me amusing .... Oh well.. Least I can do is provide entertainment, even if i cant read structural drawings.

Rebrand What?

Recently Telekom Malaysia has rebranded itself to TM. Something to do with being modern and up to date and having a whole new image.

I think they need to do much more than rebranding.

For the past few days, I've been recieving calls on my cell phone from the oddest people (think peoples parents??) whom i do not know and ive never heard of and i dont recognize the numbers at all. Each ask me who i am, do i know so and so, have i been talking to so and so, are you sure you dont know who he is, your phone number is on my bill do you know this number are you really sure you dont know what about so and so, you know him??

Bloody Telekom Malaysia and its crosslines. Its annoying me. Especially when some wierdo calls you in the middle of the night lookin for some one that you dont know.

Onwards to Vision 2020. Hah.

My brother has managed to convince my mom that he needs a laptop very badly, so much urgent work to do. So he's gettin a laptop. I, on the other hand, managed to convince my mom that I need a new laptop more than he does..an intergrated graphics card cant support all the design work i do (YES ITS TRUE). SO.....

I got a new laptop :). Farewell to my trusty Acer Travelmate which has kept me company for so long, Hello to my new Toshibe Satellite.

Some things cant be fixed

I did something i shouldnt have done. I hurt and betrayed the one person in the world id never want to hurt. And im not even sure why.

Im sorry.I didnt mean it. But i cant change what happened. No matter how many times i say im sorry, how many times i try to explain myself, that i didnt mean it, fact still remains i cant change anything and i cant fix it.

And that is the worse feeling in the world. To know you hurt the one person you love so much, the one person who gave so much to you, put so much into you, believed in you..All because you didnt think. And theres nothing you can do about it to make it better.

It just sucks.

I love you. Im sorry.

Ice cream??

Now that there are four trainees in the office, we're allowed to go to the site by ourselves, whenever we have a reason to. We have decided being bored is a valid reason :)

We were on the way to the site when i commented how i felt like having McDonalds. Then someone commented on how near Tesco was to us..And someone came up with the idea of eating ice cream an Mcdonalds. Then we realised we were unsupervised....

And the evil thoughts start coming .. ..

As you can guess, we didnt spend that much time on site. Instead, we took a little detour to McD's where we each had our ice cream. (Though three girls had no money, one guy did :)) And returned back to the office just in time for the day to end.
And we'll probably be doing it again ... Now we just have to remember to bring money with us....

Rain Rain go Away

A massive storm a couple of days ago fried my pc modem. Now im stuck havin to connect with a lousy laptop one. Sigh.

Anyways, there was a massive storm on monday, the kind where visibility is so low you cant drive, the sky is all red, loads of wind, thunder and lightning. I was on the com when the power got cut off. So being me (so smart) i turned it back on again. Well..guess it wasnt that great an idea cos about fifteen mins later the fuse tripped again (is this why the modem fried??) so i gave up and spent a sleepless half hour in my bed till i decided it was safe enough to venture out and flip the switch back on. I got out of bed, walked to my door, opened it and stepped out ..

Right into a puddle of water.

Yup. My house flooded. Rather nasty shock at one in the morning considering its never flooded before. Heck it just got renovated. My first thought was that the toilet somehow overflowed which wasnt too comforting especially since there was no power so i had no idea what i was stepping in (imagine HUMAN WASTE. Oh yuck). Anyway i opened my mouth and made enough noise to wake my folks up, plucked up enough courage to walk to the fuse box in all that water and flip the switch back on ( rather stupid realy, i could have been electrocuted come to think of it ) and found myself staring at enough water for fish to swim in. Okay okay, enough water for peacock fish to swim in.

My mom: the water came in through the windows, who didnt close the wondows, see now all the water came in through the windows, aiya aiya why didnt anyone close the windows..
My dad: Its coming from underground, maybe theres too much water in the soil and theres a crack in the tiles *poke poke around looking for a misterious hidden spring* stop making so much noise it cant be coming from the window water can come from underground ..

I walked around the house and found out the water was coming from the roof. Haih. I spent that night moving all my waterlogged stuff to a higher level.

Today, i have yet again been reminded how uneligible my writing is. As industrial trainees, we each have to submit a report and keep a logbook.. so naturally we swapped notes. And at least once for every page, someone comes up to me and asks me what i wrote. And sometimes i cant read it either. Guess all that writing in primary school didnt help much. :)

With my pc down, i cant upload any pics. All i can say is that safety helmets and me just dont go. I feel like a maggot.

SEPET are my eyes

Finally.. after so, so long.. i watched Sepet. And i have to say, its a must-see. About a thousand times better than Be Cool. So if you have to watch a movie and you havent caught it yet, go for Sepet.

Guess what .. i have a dental appointment tomorrow. Yay!
Now usually i absolutely despise visits to the dentist. Lying down on that freaky chair, with the freaky pain inducing instruments and bright light and your mouth streched wide open with some lady, no matter how nice, poking into it is NOT my idea of fun. Doesnt even come close. Its somewhere right down at the bottom, alongside the things i hate to do eg going for medical check-ups. But as its tomorrow afternoon and the dental isnt open on weekends and the appointment was scheduled a year ago, i get the afternoon off!! Yay!!

Only wish i could get the whole day but lets not be greedy.. i get an afternoon off!! Thank god for small pleasures.

I was having ice cream and talking to a friend of mine, Kok Yun (we think he has a girlfriend but he's yet to admit it in public), when he said the most surprising thing to me:

"If you were my girlfriend, you'd be so easy to get along with."

That alone, was enough to blow my mind away. Anyway, being the kaypo i am, i had to ask why. To which he replied

"You're so easy to please/make happy."

And i just had to laugh. Anyone who knows me and my relationship knows im far, far from being an easy girlfriend. Heck, Jon would be the first person to run out with a megaphone to announce it. And yes, i know i have a habit of being dificult. Blame in on hormonal imbalance. Just goes to show that the grass always looks greener on the other side.. But then again, Kok Yun probably thinks that all he needs to keep me happy would be a large tub of ice cream .. THINK AGAIN. Not everything can be fixed with a bribe.

But then again, a good pint of Baskin Robbins does have the ability to put a big, fat, happy smile on my face and a sugar high to last me all day :)

Third day of work

As im writing this im sitting in Chai's house with all the girls. About to eat spaghetti and junk food and watch tv :)

Anyway, today would be my third day or work/industrial training at IJM and its gotten pretty fun. Well, today at least. For those less informed, as a scholarship student i have to complete ten weeks of training every year. And this year, they took pity on me and let me do my training at the Bayswater Resort Condominium. Thats right next to Tesco. And its still in consrtuction. So here you have a first year Mech student who knows absolutely nothing on a construction site. And i have my own little safety helmet and safety boots. So every now and then i get to go on site and into buildings and explore. And if im not doing that i get to sit in the office and do absolutely nothing. Actually im supposed to look at construction drawings and read up on all sorts of systems but it doesnt really matter. Only downside about havin no proper work to do?? Bloody boring. Oh well... for 500 bucks a month what can you expect. Im basically gettin allowance for doing nothing but observing and asking questions. And after 3 days i know more amount the practical side of civil engineering than about my own field. But going on site is fun. For the moment. Added bonus is that there a couple more trainees with me :), we trainees follow the big people out to eat so i never have to drive.

I hear spaghetti calling my name .. pics coming soon..till then, im gonna stuff myself silly.

Rainbows and Sunbeams do not exist

Just when you think the whole world is okay and everythings going smoothly and you wake up every morning, if not all bright and chirpy at least not dreading to get out of bed, it comes crashing down around you. Leaving you standing there in the rain like an idiot with your ass hanging out of your pants, wondering what the hell just happened and how. Leaving you feeling like the shoo-in for the greatest idiot award cos you've just been telling the dude next to you how great the world and everything in it is. For the past few weeks. Just seconds before it fell out from right under your feet. In three seconds what you used to know, you arent sure of anymore. You dont know if it still safe in your old safe place, if the ground is still safe to walk on, you dont know who to talk to, who to trust. Not anymore. You cant tell which is the real thing and which is a mere illusion.

Maybe if you werent so convinced that everything was okay the fall to the ground wouldnt hurt so much, wouldnt be that much of a shock, wouldnt make you feel so darn stupid. Maybe if you were already prepared for the worst to happen it wouldnt be that bad when it did. Maybe a dull constant pain is better than a sudden drop from a sky high to a low. If you never let yourself fly you would never have to feel the fall. You would never have to feel the pain. You would be safe.

I want to go to bed and not wake up. Preferably for a long, long time.

On Life's Lessons

Some stuff i picked up while reading (yes, i do it as a past time). . Something I think its worth givin more than a second glance .. something to think about ..

"Accept what you are able to do and what you are not able to do."

"Accept the past as the past, without denying or discarding it."

"Learn to forgive yourself and forgive others."

"Don't assume its too late."

On death: "There are mornings when I cry and cry and i mourn for myself. Some mornings, im so angry and bitter. But it doesnt last long. Then i get up and say, 'I want to live.'"

On dying: "Dying is only one thing to be unhappy over. Living unhappily is something else."

"When you learn to die, you learn to live."

"Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldnt. You take certain things for granted even thought you know you should never take anything for granted."

"Love wins. Love always wins."

"So many people walk around with a meaningless life. They seem half asleep, even when they're busy doing something they think is important. This is because they're choosing the wrong things. The way you get meaning into your life is to devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning."

"Love is the only rational act."

"Why are we embarrassed by silence? What comfort do we find in noise?"

"Dont let go too soon. But dont hang on too long."

"Be compassionate. And take responsibility for each other. Love each other or die."

"There is no formula to relationships. They have to be negotiated in loving ways, with room for both parties, what they want and what they need, what they can do and what their life is like."

"Love is when you are as concerned about someone else's situation as you are about your own."

"If you're always battling against getting older, against change, you're always going to be unhappy, because its going to happen anyhow."

"Fate succumbs many a species: one alone jeopardises itself."

"Money is not a substitute for tenderness, power is not a substitute for tenderness."

"If you're trying to show off for people at the top, forget it; They will forget you anyhow. If you're trying to show off to people at the bottom, forget it; they will only envy you. Status will get you nowhere. Only an open heart will allow you to float equally between everyone."

I guess thats enough thought for one night. Think about it. I did.

NUMB

I think I think too much. Oh god I wish I were clueless. I wish i didnt read so much into tiny little things, from the way he answers the phone, from messages, even to the way things are typed onto msn ( yes, you can tell if someone is typing then speculate on that ). Hate wondering whether or not i get a call, whether or not i'll be doing anything. Hate havin to give myself reasons. I hate non visual converations.

Ever know what its like to feel nothing? Completley numb. Like you've been submerged too long in a block of ice. Like you have no soul, just a shell walking aimlessly. Like you just dont feel. Things arent like colours on a sharp SXVGA LCD screen. Its like an endless mess of greys and greens and browns, blurred together on one canvas. Numb is when you havent slept in a while but you aint tired. When you havent eaten but you just dont feel hungry. Where you wonder if throwing yourself in front of a bus could hurt. And whether you could die, or end up in hospital with attentive people by your side. When you dont give a shit if anyone comes for your funeral, when you dont give a shit if you live or die, when youre not on a 64 tone polyphonic, but on a somethin worse than a standard monotone - the 'ring ring' tone.

I guess being numb is when you just dont care anymore.

A thought and a Holiday

Today’s conversation made me think:

Is it wrong to want something better? To be the best you can be, to want to try harder?
Is it wrong to push yourself to the limit, to go all the way? Is it wrong to try?

I've always thought to myself, if someone else can do it, I can to. Within reasonable limitations, that is..I know I will never be a super model/movie star/genius. So I push myself, I don’t want to be left out. I don’t want to at the end of the day, feel like shit cos I didn’t try. I don’t want to think that I might have, that I could have, if only I tried. I hate what-iffing.

So I push, sometimes to the point where I buckle under the stress, and I break down.I don’t want to fail. And I guess by fail, I don’t mean pass-fail kind of fail. I don’t want to disappoint myself. I don’t want to not be able to live up to expectations. Maybe I try to hard, maybe I expect to much.

Maybe that’s wrong??

Hmm...
I think something went wrong somewhere along the line...
Or I could settle for the fact that I’m just weird.

Oh yea .. the girls and I went up to Mount Pleasure for the weekend, to let loose and have some fun J .. and we did have fun. From mahjong sessions to pool dunking, hair curling-straightening to ice cream parties, drinking and junk food sessions, it was all a blast. Even when a hand phone accidentally went swimming with us. It’s a cozy feeling, nine girls squished onto one bed, fighting over the comforter and talking till the sun comes up and its not night time anymore. From fifth form till now, we’ve been coming up at least once a year. And sitting there pigging out on ice cream, junk, cereal, whatever was edible in the house, it’s nice to know boyfriends or not, working or jobless, local uni student or not, we all have mount pleasure and ice cream if we make the effort.

Though I didn’t take many pics (it completely slipped my mind the night before), check out the pics, nevertheless..

Yu Ming and Leech
Lazing in the pool
water babes :)
See Mun
A happy Chai floating
Leech and Me
Another poolside pic .. arent we a happy lot
The Babidadari : Me, Chai and Terri

And for a group of girls who basically had no sleep the night before and managed to eat an alarming amount of food between us (think about 100 bucks worth of food in a day – a dozen eggs, ten packets of instant noodles, 2 cartons of milk, eight tubs of yoghurt, cereal, a lot of junkfood, bread, ice cream, rice, chicken .. – yes, we are scary), I think we look pretty darn content J

Girlie Chit Chat

I was over at my girl friends Vilas house today, havin a little catch up session after not havin seen her for months. Anyway, going through our own little dilemmas and stories, i have come to a conclusion :

I am not alone.

Girls, in general want/need ( i have yet to figure that out ) to be treated like princesses. We thrive on attention and secretly want someone to worship the ground we walk on and have someones world revolve around us and solely us. Who doesnt want to feel like the most important thing on earth?? Selfish and troublesome, i know.. but still.. a girl can dream, cant she?? Remember the fairy tales we all learnt aeons ago??The ones where some prince charming sweeps the the princess off her feet and rescues her from some evil dragon?? Swan princess?? Cinderalla? Yea well..Most girls secretly want to be the princess. Similarly, teensy part in most guys want to be the macho prince .. Its just that its hidden somewhere next to the part that nurses the secret need to be babied.

On another note, i happened to catch Thirsty Traveller on the travel channel. And i think i've found my calling. For those of you who dont/cant watch the travel channel, Thirsty Traveller is basically about this guy that travels the world getting to sample all types of booze and find out its history, how its made, the festivals etc. ( today i found our sambuca originates from Rome and why they put in three coffee beans ) And he gets paid for it. Best job ive come across so far. The girl who travels the world compliling best hotel/beach/restaurant list sounds pretty great as well.

I should have taken journalism and beauty classes instead of engineering.

Something to Think About?

Had a friend send this to me recently .. I thought it was post worthy so here it is. Not often do you get a guy who sends/thinks stuff like this ..
Thanks Kar Loon! :)

" 'Love her not only in your heart but also in your mind. If you base your relationship just on feelings, it will fail for there are ups & downs in feelings. Girls are there to be loved, not toyed around.'

'Love her for who she is. Don't even think about changing any bit about her. 6 billion people in this world & 6 billion different personalities. She's special & she should stay that way. You change any part of her, you'll change her forever.'

'If you love her, don't substitute her with some else, for they are all unique in their own ways and sooner or later you'll find something you want to change in the other person. Its not always her, it could be you.'

'Love her whole-heartedly. She willingly sacrificed for you so treasure it. Of the 6 billion people in the world she chose you. So love her, dont play her.'

'Don't ever let the girl to beg you to stay or whatsoever. If you're with her, love her. Don't cause strain in the relationship, or you'll end up loving each other out of pity or charity, that's not respecting love at all. Respect love the way it is & everything will be the best it can be.'

'Don't expect perfection. We're all human. There's only one of her in the world & she's done the best she could. Just because it wasnt what you expected doesnt mean she didnt try.'

'Like another girl while you're in a relationship? Then I think it's time you remain single for a while. Don't go around breaking hearts, it's the most tragic & selfish thing to do.

Tell the truth, never hide. If you expect honesty, be honest. Love isnt a game. And if you cant be honest, its time to rethink.'

'Don't go calling other girls "honey", "babe" or "darling". How would it feel if your girl calls other guys the same way? Be thoughtful for her feelings.'

'Flirting is for singles. People socialise & flirt around to get The ONE. Get over it when she's already yours, don't ask for more. Be faithful, enough is enough.'

'It never kills to be romantic. Think, be flexible. Getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift for her. Be realistic, she's human & she lives life just like you. Something sweet & simple always gets the job done. Money doesn't exist between couples, it's the love.'

'Never promise her that you'll love her forever because your forever might end the next day. Love her as long as you both shall live. Love her as if each day is the last.

Sweet talk only applies for singles, not for attached guys. Do that & you'll really break her heart. Isn't good being too well-known too, it'll give her a sense of insecurity. Remember, INSECURITY.'

'Make promises to her & make sure you never break it. Swear to her & make sure you keep it. Pledge your love to her & her alone.

Loving her is giving her your heart to break but trusting her not to. Instead, she'll cherish it & protect it. That's love. Give her your heart, your life, your everything. Lay down your life & prepare to die for her when the need arises. But stay strong & live through another day, she can never live without you.'

'Never, ever walk out of her life. She won't just cry her heart out & carry on living as usual. Broken hearts make broken people. Once you break her heart, she'll never be the same again. And once you lose something, you'll never get it back.'

'Winning a girl's heart isn't the final victory. Don't leave her once you've won her love. Love her all the way till the end of time, love her till marriage, love her till old age, love her till death. If you can love her till the end of time, you've earned the honor & respect for you've truly loved her.'

'She chose you because she believes that you can fulfil your promise. Win her heart & love her over. Remember, the girl isn't a trophy for display, she's someone to love, not to show off to your "friends". Stay humble yet proud that she's the one for you.'"

Being female and having had my own share of "bad times", im obviously for this little posting above me( which girl hasnt had these kind of thoughts before?? ) .. and i find it even more interesting that a guy thought this up. Kinda makes you think, doesnt it?

3 months of Absolute BLISS

Hello World.. Im BACK!

Yup .. hols again. Three months away from PB, away from campus, away from books. Three months of eating, living and sleeping Penang Island. So happy so happy :)

Actually only a couple of weeks more before i start work. Damn. Currently sitting with Terri and Justin while doing this..Just one of the many people i have vowed i will meet up with this hols .. and its so much easier doing things when you have broadband. :)

Anyways, i am currently done with Engineering Math and Statistics, i have packed up my Fluid Mechanic books, My Materials, Statics and Design stuff is packed up out of the way and i am currently very, very ready to have some fun. The girls will be back soon and its back up to Mt Pleasure (doesnt that name just make you think of odd things??) for a weekend and some much needed chilling .. So seeya people around .. and remember im always free for a day out, a breakfast, a dinner .. ANYTHING .. so, CALL ME! :)

In loving memory of Teoh Wei Loon

Yesterday i went to a funeral. My classmates funeral. He wasnt even 21 yet, just about to finish his first year in uni.

Im not going to exaggerate say how close we were and stuff like that cos we werent. We were friends, classmates. Not close friends. I cant even begin to imagine how his closest friends, family, girlfriend must be feeling. I cant imagine myself in the same place. I dont want to ever be in the same place. But it makes you realise, just how fragile life is. Just how suddenly things can happen. Where you spend your life reading stuff like this, watching stuff like this and you live in your secure little coccoon thinking it will never happen to me.

It still seems unreal. At the funeral, it struck me odd cos there seemed to be too many youngsters, teenagers. People in my generation who have at most have only gone to a grandparents, greatgrandparents funeral, or maybe not at all. At this age, death is something you think is still far, far away.

He will be dearly missed by all who knew him.

Stress Stress

i have come to a conclusion: i must be very stressed.

Its been over a week and ive regularly been gettin wiered dreams. Every night, without fail. Doesnt matter if i sleep at one or i sleep at three, i still get wiered dreams.
And damn are they wiered.

So there you have it : i am stressed. So if i happen to yell at you cos you annoyed me, so sorry. I have been off coffee for a grand total of two days and its making me feel stupid and sleepy.

Lightbulb

Some things took me six months to realise..

Others took me a little more than eighteen months.


There are things that took me close to twenty four months to see.....




And then there are things that i will probably never fully realise/grasp/understand.


Slow learner eh?
Or maybe im just stupid.

Karma.

And the winner is... the Radical One

haha!! Winning design!! Yup .. you know the design in the last post???? Guess what?? We won!!! First place!!!!! Unfortunately cant upload the pic of the three of us at the moment.. sorry ya.. But we Won!! The slack group, the group that was labeled lazy and pariah engineers (all cos we werent paying attention during some presentation), the group that cant speak chinese and do everything last minute..

IN YOUR FACE Baha!

Happy happy...

Almost done now.. just gotta hang on a little bit longer..

Finally Finished!!! The Radical Crutch!!

You know you've been up too long staring at a com screen when

1. Your vision gets blurry. And when you rub your eyes it gets worse.
2. When you finally look away from the screen you can still see it. And little blinky lights. And blinky lines.
3. You dont have eyebags anymore, you have goldfish eyes.
4. You hear the morning prayers call before you've gone to sleep
5. You feel that your slowly turning blind and stupid.

This week has been a killer. Ever since ive been back from CNY hols, its been juggling time between our design project work and tests. And finally, today, the memorable 24th of February 2005, we hand up our completed project. No more sleeping, eating and living design. No more sleeping at odd hours for nights on end. Im free!!!!!!

Just for this evening, that is.

I'm so proud of what we did that I have pics of it. I know you're probably not interested but humour me :) I wanted to post up the animation but i thought that would be going overboard. Check out ------> the Radical Crutch

Our work in process. Finally finished and handed up today! For the first time in ages i have time to myself. I came back this afternoon and i didnt know what to do. So i slept..

The Solid Model of our Project. Cant actually see the whole thing but looks good?? RIght???? Damn good job if i must say so myself considering that we only assembled and animated everything last night. We were up in the cafeteria till three to do this, getting eaten alve by mozzies before we respectively pulled all nighters in our room to finish it up. Bangganya!!

With that and my shitty Lab test and C++ finished (in both ways) i have finally cleared my room and dumped all that stuff under my bed so i can actually see my table top once more.

Something important to do tomorrow. Cross your fingers, wish me luck.

Library TRIP

Embarassment of the day : i fell.

I was in the library to renew a very overdue book. So i was walking around, making some small talk, got my book back and i left. Standard library trip right? Then i fell. Was walking out of the library with my book, went down the stairs and ... my ankle gave way on me. So i fell. Down the stairs. With my book and my bag and my umbrella. Not very gracefully. Major embarrasment. Thankfully, there are no hot hunks in PB.

You'd think after so many years i'd have at least learnt how to fall gracefully, but noo... i had to make a great scene. So i picked up my stuff and skedaddled as fast as i could. I will NOT go to the library tomorrow.

Oh wait.. ACHIEVEMENT OF THE DAY: I have yet to have a cup of coffee! Althought i've spent half the day only half awake, its still an achievement right??? See.. im not that addicted to caffein

Neways, pics as promised ..

Girls night out .. this was taken shortly before Hui Min returned to US. We'll see you in a year !

Dinner at Teluk Kumbar .. we stuffed outselves silly with seafood..

Girly get-together .. Ishuet and me

See Muns Birthday!! The first of us to turn 21 .. Happy B'day girl!!!

At Jit Shiongs Birthday.Yes i know he's not in the pic but he's too busy outside barbequeing the food for all us lazy girls inside ..

This would be me at See Muns barbeque. Im holding an umbrella to protect our lamb from the rain. Had a blast that day.. i won myself 15 bucks gambling :). Not bad for a beginner eh?

Yi Wenns 21st birthday! Another girl turning 21.

Biscuit and Cow. This is what Jesie and I did one evening when we were too bored on campus. Bored engineering students have a tendency to go slightly wacky

minor shit in lisa systems

This bring a rather shitty close to what has been a really long day. Makes it even longer cos it seems like two days have merged into one. Yes, i had a grand total of one and a half hours of sleep last night.. maybe more, maybe less.

Spent this week sleep deprived (i dont know why tests have to be crammed together), whole of last night (that would be thursday night) trying to complete my bloody lab report and dragged myself up this morning at 7.30 to make a little trip all over campus. This is my pathline :

room --> cafeteria --> computer center --> language center --> mechanical school --> cafeteria --> room --> cafeteria

All that distance to be covered in the space of half an hour. So i ran. Literally. Like a complete idiot running round campus in the wrong direction ( i was the only ass running away from the classes. Actually i was just the only ass running.), sweating, with my hair flying all over the place and my glasses steaming up. And not to mention that i had no dinner, no breakfast and no morning bath. All to catch the 8.30am morning bus to go home.

I caught the bus :)

On one and a half hours of sleep, i sit at the back of the rattly bus which could probably rival the motion master. I can deal with the rattling though big bumps jarr my backbone but that awful creak-creak-creak which corresponds to each bump-bump-bump of the bus and each bang of my elbow against the seat is enough to drive anyone insane. I look out the window, staring into vast nothingness, my mind completely blank. Strange. I am not sleepy. I am bored. Yet another journey back. Everyone on board seems to be asleep. I will not close my eyes. I will not let the opportunity for me to succumb to fatigue arise. Once i close my eyes, im done for. The fatigue will devour me with hungry jaws and i will not wake. I will not make it home. I have been awake for more that twenty four hours. Its amazing, i havent even had my morning coffee. I reach home and resist sleep another four hours before finally dropping into lala land sometime past twelve for a two hour nap. And im still awake. I cant sleep. I have too much to think about.

What is important? I've been searching for an answer and i still cant find it.

10 things i wish for

1. To actually fcuk it and forget it when i say so
2. To fly
3. To be selfish, to think about only me and not give a damn about what other people wanted
4. accept myself for what i am
5. multi lingual
6. less critical, of myself and others
7. unlimited pocket
8. to be different
9. to be normal
10. to have my own mind..

Princess of Theives??

I have come to a realisation : I can never be a theif.

Lost my (well not exactly mine but still, mine for the moment) very new motorbike helmet a couple of weeks ago. Since then, dinner out and bike rides to class have decreased drastically. okay, maybe having to walk to class isnt that bad. The bad part about losing a helmet that isnt mine?? I gotta replace it before i get found out. Yup, i have to get a brand new, silver coloured, full face visor Index helmet soon before my mom finds out ive lost it cos then i'll never hear the end of it. My mom still talks about the time i was twelve and lost some cert from a file. I bet she'll harp about the missing bike helmet till im 40.

Anyways, to get a new helmet would put me back somewhere around sixty bucks. Sixty bucks i cant afford, 'specially since im still indebted to Terri. So what did i do today? I put my PFS skills to work. I kinda stole it back. Ive been scouting around and i saw a helmet that looked exactly like mine. Im not too sure but it looked eactly like mine and i really dont want to shell out cash for a helmet so i grabbed it and dissappeared into the sunset. Figured someone will gain and someone has to lose, im determined to be neither. Fair trade right??

But im feeling the guilt. Im feeling really, really guilty. I think i'll go and put it back.

Looks like i'll never make it to big time bank robbery. But at least i know i'll go to heaven :)

Chinese New Year hols are over and im back in PB. My new year resolution?? To lose 3kg and get rid of the zits on my forehead by the end of one month. Wait, maybe thats too ambitious. One and a half months then. The months of pigging out and no exercise is starting to show. And if i cant be smart, at least i can look good.

Finals in less than two weeks. Im screwed.

Holiday?? What holiday??

Im BACK! For an entire week of holiday!!But seeing that i'll have to go to Ipoh for CNY, not entirely long enough. Oh well... quick update on what ive been up to so far :

1. Went pressie shoppin
2. Had a couple of celebrations (with a few more to come)
3. Catch a flu
4. Visit sir (finally)
5. Eat chocolate, watch a movie
6. Wax Terri's back!! I have pics but it seemed a little too graphic.. think Indonesian maid abuse victim...
7. Meet up with Jon. A brief but better then nothing peiod of time. Oh well.. Theres always next time..
8. Eat Mcdonalds Bfast with Chai and Terri. Some things dont change :)
9. Lose alot of sleep
10. Eat Mcdonalds breakfast AGAIN with See Mun, Polyn and Terri

Then heres what i have to do before i leave:

1. Go to Ipoh (unfortunately neccessary)
2. Meet up with Tze Lin (maybe we can do lunch???i'll be back thursday; call me if youre free, i have to see you before you go, its been ages)
3. BIRTHDAYS! Which also mean present shopping again..
4. Have dinner with Jon
5. Have a chit chat with Vila
6. See Ye Shan before she leaves, and collect my certs
7. Mahjong and fireworks: Ishuets place
8. Glo??Hey im invited right??? And im free right???
9. Actually, meet up with a number of people, but somehow given the current situation its just not possible..

Plenty of things to be done, not nearly enough time. And it doubly sucks that i neither have my own car nor a driver. Precious time wasted sittin on my arse doing nothing. Oh yea.. and i'm supposed to study.

ADJECTIVE - a word that describes a noun or pronoun.

For some reason i found this interesting. Maybe its knowing that i'd never be able to do something like that in this lifetime.

Was taking a pee at 2.15am when this thought crossed my mind : I kinda forgot i have a father.
Its so odd i almost found it funny.

Todays conversation with mother:

Me: Mum, i might be coming back tomorrow afternoon around 4. Can you pick me up?
Mum: Four ah?? Cannot la, i have to go for my reflexology at three and i might not be done till five. Maybe you can wait for me in my office till evening..
Me: I dont have you office key...
Mum: oh right.. i dont know, maybe you can see if someone else can pick you up. Maybe Terri has classes? See if you can catch a ride ..

In that 55 second conversation, she didnt mention my dad. I forgot all about him and the fact that he might be around.

And it took me almost 10 hours to realise that.

Wrong side of the bed..

Been having the same headache that kept me up last night most of today. I am grumpy and annoyed for no reason whatsoever.

Im not very sure whats going on but as of yesterday my new posts never seem to appear.. been trying to publish them over and over again but its still non existant. Oh well. Keeping my fingers crossed.

I wonder sure how my roomie does it. She can last on even less sleep then me, wakes up at any time in the morning no matter what time she sleeps (yes, she woke me up again) yet still manages to catch an afternoon nap no matter how hot, how bright, how noisy. Me? I just dont sleep, therefore cant ever wake up, then get grumpy.

Its a brand new me

Hey Hey! Its the start of a new year .. or chinese new year more like .. so i decided to change the look. Finally got around to gettin Hello so i can upload pics.. most unfortunately, nothing recent to put up cos my camera has been spending time in the hospital thus Sakura-chan right here. I promise though, more pics coming soon .. :)

Been counting the days till hols start.. seems like this sem past pretty fast though im not sure if that good or bad but guess it doesnt matter. Looking forward to seeing everyone again, specially before those aussie student leave again.. Yes, it still gets boring here.. Anyway, i was brushing my teeth using my colgate triple action toothpaste when i had a thought - how did they get the toothpaste to come out in 3 stripes??? Even after i mushed the tube up a bit, its still in 3 stripes... interesting eh?

I have a cut on the roof of my mouth. From the combined bad habit of crunching ice and chewing on straws. And it hurts. Everytime i try to take a bite of my pear or eat biscuits i can feel the little piece of skin flapping. YUCK.

When you have nothing else better to do, You Sleep.

Yup.. Its a Friday and im still on Campus.. Curse Saturday classes. Nevertheless though, i did get to see something new. It Friday. Which means down here at our most happening town PARIT BUNTAR we have the PASAR MALAM!! Yay! Something to do tonight..

If i really wanted to, i could have bought an ostrich egg (and its feet and it innards), all sorts of magical oils to increase my sexuality, to keep me glowing, to hide my unsightly bulges, to increase my errection(if i had one). I could have gotten wiered massages garanteed to keep muscle aches away and improve my blood circulation, or i could have bought the oil and done it myself. I could have bought sandals for RM12, Nike bags, NIKER bags, RM6 slippers, 5durians for RM5, crates of oranges, dresses, clothes, RM10 "non stick" kualis, gutted fish, dried fish, raw prawns, home made sambal, turtle jelly, all sorts of fruits, spices, locks, watches, radios, clocks, pesticides, insects repellent, rodent repellent.... Its amazing, the amount of stuff they can pack into a mere few streets.

Guess What I came back with??

Go on, take a guess ..

A murtabak ayam and 15 pears.
And at a grand total of RM6.50, i think i got myself a bargain.

Ugh. Saturday morning class..

NINE days to go till its time to GongXi GongXi!!

Princess, Princess

At times, i dont know if im a bitchy princess demanding too much of everything or whether all my needs really arent met. I dont know if my pathetic feelings are justified, or im simply wasting my time and making myself seem even more pathetic than i already can get. Its an odd world. No matter, i refuse to ponder over such thoughts, the very act of thinking about thinking already makes me squirm. The time is better spent trying to figure out EMH 112/3 Fluid Mechanics I which after half a sem i still cant do, still cant grasp any concepts and its getting worse with every class.
I am proud of one thinge though - i have not bitched about phone calls for quite some time.. im getting somewhere now..

This is a bad sem. This is a bad year. I may have gotten used to being here, but it doesnt mean i dont occasionally get homesick, it doesnt mean life here is any easier, it doenst mean i can do everything. Laugh at me if you must, but it doesnt change anything.

Above my head theres a lizard which just caught a huge bug bigger than its head.. its still holding on. The bug isnt giving in without a fight.. Interesting...

When you Feel Like SHit

Ever felt like a failure?

I have.

THIS SUCKS

Its the first day after making my so called Resolutions. And already i have failed.
I spent yesterday evening watching Naruto, i for some reason didnt hear the lecturer announcing THREE TIMES that class was cancelled although i was sitting there, i STILL have no textbook and i didnt manage to drop LAJ100 thanks to that old bitch in the office.
I suck at things like this.
Wouldve been able to drop if not for her. I went to the Pusat Bahasa to go look for my teacher who said i'll have to look for the Pengerusi Rancangan who inncidently went out for lunch early and came back late. Yes, i waited out there like a total complete ass. Neways, i saw her, she lectured me and told me to look for my Dean, which i did. But the whole office was empty (seems like everyone here comes back late from lunch) so i sat and waited till a nice lady came to tell me that HE WASNT IN. But being a nice lady and all, she told me to get the drop form, fill it in and pass it to her which she will pass to the dean so i can collect it the next morning. So everythings okay ... Teacher - check, pengerusi rancangan - check, dean - almost check. Until i go back to the office after running all the way back to the pusat bahasa and i meet THE BITCH. Who made a really loud fuss and chased me out of the office. I swear, some people were just put on the earth to make things hard for you.
Sigh>

*Miss you.*

Happy New 2005!!

Hey Hey!
Its New Years again.. the start of a Brand Spanking New Year .. the time where you can let go all the shit that happened last year and make new resolutions.. Which you dont exactly keep, but hey, at least i tried .. that counts for something right????
Actually, i dont remember if i made any resolutions last year, but oh well ..

This year, the big 2005, i have come to realise that i have grown old, and hopefully grown up.. a little bit. So i plan to be good :)
i will NOT succumb to evil pleasures, i will sleep in more often, spend less money, pamper myself a little bit more, worry a little less .. hmmm .. oh yea, and i will keep Wednesday as my designated anime day and try to keep a little bit more up to date about everything else around me.

Well, heres to hoping i'll keep it .. for a while at least :)
Happy New Year!!!

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year

My mother says im impolite
My grandmother says im unladylike
My boyfriend thinks im stubborn
My friend thinks im obsessed over my weight
My roomie says i can never wake up in the morning (really, who wants to wake up seven for 3 hours of math??)
My coursemate says i do wiered things WTF??ME???WIERED THINGS???
My unimates think less of me cos i am what you call ang moh sai - ENGLISH SHIT
MY mother says i could do better
My boyfriend says i always want to do better
My friends say i cant do anything myself
The girls stayin below me think i spend too much time watchin movies
My C++ lecturer hates me
My boyfriend says i never listen
A friend says i think too much
My dad says i treat the house like a hotel
My mom says im fat
My classmate says i worry too much
And it just keeps on comin..

So what am i anyway?

My dog loves me.

COLD

Its a freakin cold Tuesday morning... and im freezin my ass off in the com lab.. Strange, how the connection here is so, so much faster then what we have in out rooms.. Oh god, it so cold i cant think straight.

Ive been bitchin and stressing myself out over my damn design project and i finally got the second draft done yesterday. Heres a fantasy : The other so called lame ass group member comes up to me and bugs me whether the project is done, not even offering to help. I explode in front of the whole class, let out all the mental anguish ive been having, i yell at him so that everyone knows just how much of a loser he is, he sits down and shuts up like an idiot, my lecturer fails him, everyone in the class applauds and he falls through a big hole in the earth. Sounds good??

I spent this morning in my bed, debating if i should go for class.. Its RAINING and its COLD. Its a good day to sleep in. But goodness prevails... i only skipped one hour :) Another 3days to christmas. Which means another 4 days till Hui Min is back from US .. I wonder how much has changed since then. Hmmm....I cant wait for christmas to come this year :) The year has passed so fast, its almost the middle of my second sem here in Parit Buntar. This is what i was thinking last night :

1. Nasi Lemak
2. Maggi-Goreng-Ayam-Tambah-Telur-Atas?
3. Burger Ayam Special
4. Maggi-Sup-Ayam-tambah-telur-atas
5. Brownies and Ice Cream
6. Vodka Lime
7. AK 47
8. CREPES
9. Waffles and Ice Cream
10. CHICKEN
11. CHocolate Digestives
12. Ban CHien Kuih
13. Curry Mee
14. Tempura Fish
15. White Chocolate Latte
16. Spaghetti
17. Maxim Egg Tarts
18. Roti Tisu
19. Nasi Kandar Pertama
20. Segas Graveyard and fish fingers
21. Super Moist Chocolate cake

Yes, I was hungry. It rained from six to around eight last night, and it would have been the day there was no nasi lemak and the week where i didnt stock up on biscuits. Sigh. So i starved. IM HUNGRY. Time for Fluid Mechanics. Cheers!

I NEED ICE CREAM

I have come to HATE doing group work. Id rather do more work and let it be my own work, than do slighly less and have to carry people through it. I was talking to a friend over ice cream today, who was is somewhat the same predicament as me. Dont want to let the group members just pick of you, but no choice. Cos if they fail, we fail. Anyway, she brought up the fact that girls are supposed to be the weaker sex, but we end up doing all the work. Which made me think... doesnt that make us the weaker sex then?? Getting pushed around and made to do all the shit work for nothing.. Wait, not for nothing, for people to pick off, which is ten times worse.. So are we the weaker people for getting shoved around? Is it because of our conciences, our responsibilities?

Once again, i am awake... Having to once again to some last minute shit on some last minute design project. Again. I will be so glad when this is over. Takes up more time than studying actually would. Havent touched my books..heck havent even bought em yet. This is NOT a good start to the sem. I was as Ishuets house last night... This is something new i learnt : 1. Peanut butter and banana Ban Chien Kuih is not only pretty good, but also pretty filling and 2. Islams are not supposed to use condoms. (??) Can anyone verify that for me??

Fifth week of uni. I still have no textbook. Christmas is coming!!!!

Seven cups of KopiTiam coffee should be made illegal

FIve cups of coffee can do odd things to you.
It late, sort of and im dead tired and im still sitting here trying to owrk on my design project but im not noticeably any further along then when i was when i started. Im tired, and im grumpy and on top of that my back aches..
I think i overdosed on the caffeine... cant exactly think too straight anymore, which i can see by the huge amount of spelling errors i have made so far.. whoo hooo.. caffeine high.. ahaha..

i am tired. Either my body or my brain is tired, i cant figure out which one... I took the morning campus bus back today which was so packed that i consider myself luck i got a place to sit. And when all i wanted to do was gfet a liilte shut eye it had to be that a bunch of extremely loud foreign students, arabs i think? had to be sitting/standing around me... and theu kjust HAD to talk really loud. Or it seemed really loud to me.. Yes, i was annoyed. Very. Then i had to get stuck on a traffic jam on the bridge, therfore missing my chance to get a ride home from campus.. which meant i had to rely on our so wonderful public transport system called the mini bus. Aquashed in a mini bus carrying a sack and a brick is someting i could do without.

Im tired... and i not tired..actually i dont know what i am. I am going to bed, i refuse to count the amount of hours i have slept this week cos its a disturbing thought. Gotta get up early tomorrow to drop my mom off..

If youre reading this darling im sorry..

Caffeine High

You know how i last bitched about Wednesdays here?

I have come up with a reason to like Wednesdays.. at least pasrt of Wednesdays. On Wednesday mornings, my seniors have early class and my roomie has Japanese .. which means everyone gets up before me and leaves before me. When its still dark. Which means i can not only sleep in after waking up (i overslept my classes before) BUT i get the room to myself. So therefore i can go take a bath, wrap myself in a towel, walk to my room... then stand naked under the fan!!!!!! Yes, its a luxury here.. and to those who get to dry themselves in the comfort of their own rooms, you have no idea how much you can miss it. Call me weired, but i just dont like the feeling of having to put on clean clothes when you havent been properly dried by the blast of cool air coming from a fan. So i have a reason to like Wednesday mornings... Its my free morning.

Been up all night so far doing my damn design project - an auto disable syringe. I was scouring the net, looking for feasible design concepts when i came across this line:

"..the product was developed after two years of extensive research and trailing by our dedicated team.."

I read it out to my partner Hanxen (we were having an audio conversation courtesy of MSN) and for some reason it struck us both as super funny that people have spent years on their product while we have to hand in our draft by monday. And that we slackers who havent a single clue on how a retracting mechanism works will pick off their hardwork, pass it in and expect the lecturer to believe we designed it.

I think ive been awake for two long.. Or maybe its the caffeine... But up to three cups a day is quite safe... so i should be fine.. i think?? I have this really bad feeling im gonna oversleep again tomorrow.. or rather today..My body is shutting down on me. But my brain is still awake. Ever had the feeling where you're not asleep yet not awake? Where you want your hand to move but you cant move it?? Im hungry. Oh yeah.. coffee flavoured milk tastes no where near as good as the regular canned coffee.. and canned coffee tastes no where near as good as the coffee straight form the coffee shop that costs like a dollar. Nescafe three in one doesnt even come close.

Enough, enough. Oyasumi Nasai.

Fried Porridge and Brakes?

Another day has gone by. My mind in chock full of everything i'll ever need to know about anti lock braking systems (did you know they were first invented for aircrafts??). My mind today is so saturated with junk on ABS that i spent most of the time on MSN today typing break as brake. I have one more design project to go then im done!! For now, that is..

Its late, well not quite that late but considering the so generous amount of sleep ive been getting these past few days, its late enough for me to turn in and go to bed. BUT my seniors, who apparently have no morning classes on Tuesdays have decided to have a little pyjama party and watch movies tonight. As far as i can tell, its Polar Express right now.. I havent watched it yet, but i'm hearing it already. Haih..

Went out for dinner today.. with my seniors, you know the whole little 'family'? Anyways, im guessing its cos its the last sem for the finals year students.. too bad, i really like my final year senior.. she always talks to me and smiles whenever i bump into her. Siew Yong is currently wrapped up in/with (??) her boyfriend, i hope i am not as... well i cant think of a word but you get the meaning? Anyways, went all the way down to Kedah.. this little place called Serdang (hey theres another Serdang). Its about a 40 minute drive from where i am, and it kinda reminds me exactly of Langkawi.. Long, dark winding roads with trees on one side and empty fields in the other.. you can see the sillouhette of hills against the night sky and there arent any lights. Imagine.. all the way there to eat .. Fried Porridge. Ever heard of fried porridge?? Cos i never till today. Its like this brown mush, kinda resembing oats, or baby food or something even worse..but it tastes pretty good.. And we had the usual dishes .. about six or seven of em.. and the bill came to RM112 .. I dont know if thats supposed to be cheap cos i think its pretty expensive but hey, its food. And they serve the fish in a fish shaped dish! Yes, i find that amusing for some reason..

Eleven days to Christmas!!! I cant wait! And seventeen more days till this year ends and a new one comes. I look back on this year and its hard to imagine so much has happened in the space of just a year.. how much ive grown, how much ive gone through, how much ive changed.. how much things have changed. I dont know if it was a good year or an average year or a not so good year.. but i learnt plenty.. So i guess thats something, aint it? We'll see what next year brings...

Time to try to go to bed.. Im already known as the girl who is perpetually sleepy and late for class..

Why

This is the most commonly used word in my vocab : WHY

If that word was never invented, then i would never have known it therefore would never have and probably wont be getting myself into so much cow manure. I was the annoying little ked who asked why to everything. I never stopped asking why cos i wanted to know. My mom used to get so annoyed by me that she ended up saying something along the lines that I ask too much nonsense, and i should find someone else and ask. Somewhere along the way, the little kid stopped asking questions out loud. They now just parade around in my mind, hence causing massive headaches.

WHY

ogenki deska?? :)

Hello hello. .. its Wednesday and i have successfully muddled through almost another week here!! *applause applause* yup yup.. its the third week of uni and so far i have successfully managed to oversleep, oversleep and miss a class, miss a quiz, lose my tutorial room, and fall in the toilet. And i think thats enough achievements for the month. Really .. i wonder why on earth i always manage to land myself in trouble. Must be my face. ....

I'm beginning to hate wednesdays ... full day of classes, until 6.. not even any lunch break. Not to mention i'll never, ever have another ladies night. I know i promised i wouldnt go, but its always nice just to think about it. So, today i was smart and i packed myself a little sandwich to eat in class. But by six i was frozen blue (i dont know why the lab has to be so cold) and almost dead from starvation. Jon has gone back .. we dropped him off in Ipoh last Friday .. the day i became a thiefand stole a portuguese egg tart. Wait, it wasnt my fault...but the damn staff there decided to talk, so they closed one cashier and directed me to another non existant one (well we couldnt find it) which pissed us off so i walked off with my egg tart .. and felt guilty about it. Speaking of ipoh, do you know the service there is bloody slow. Let me repeat that - SUBERBLY SLOW . I never thought that McDonalds service could suck that much. Never thought for that matter McD's would serve me limp fries. The service was so bad at Kenny Rogers that we gave up waiting.. and it wasnt even busy. Ipoh Sucks! (sorry, cant help it.) Im glad i dont stay in Ipoh.

This goddess has got to go.. because this goddess is drowning in assignments and design projects ... Im not all that evil ... so oyasumi nasai .. mata ashita!!