Its odd. How the more people care about each other, the easier it becomes to hurt one another. The way the smallest things matter so much. The way two people can fight over nothing at all. It’s ironic in a way.. how you can care so much for someone.. Yet the minute you feel threatened you strike where it does the most damage. You take a cheap shot. So if one hurts, the other does too. Doesn’t make you feel any better. But you do it anyway. You can say sorry.. But a thousand apologies doesn’t change what you said. Doesn’t make it hurt any less, doesn’t make it go away.
It kinda sucks.
Then in the aftermath of destruction, you sit on your ass and think : What the hell just happened? Why?
Then you sit a little longer and get confused as to how everything ended so messy. Therefore ending up with yet another sleepless night.
Its amazing actually, how nothing can become something, then become everything yet still end up as nothing. The mind is a strange thing. The human being is a strange thing. How you can bare your soul one minute, then jump around and bite the moment someone steps on your tail. How you can take a licking then go back for more. How little things can bug you so much. How your thoughts can run wild in the middle of the night. Or in the middle of the day. Or whenever.
I wish I could think straight.
I wish my mind and my thoughts didn’t run so wildly, zig zagging throught my head.
I wish that what I squish into the back of my head, what I neatly put into a little box could just stay there.
I wish my head could think faster then my heart.
So I could shut the hell up and not let anything bug me.
Its easier to forgive then to forget.
