Two and a Half years to go

Its my second semester in my second year. Four more semesters to go till i graduate. Its my first week of uni .. and im sick. Already. Being sick during the first week of the semseter isnt all that bad. But being sick during the new year weekend is. ARGGH!! Even if the fever goes i wont be able to eat all i want! or drink all i want! Dammit!

Happy New Years everyone. So long 2005 ... im looking forward to a new year.

Christmas :)

Its christmas .. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Glo ROCKS!!

Tequila shots rock!!!

Im never going back to chillout again.

Hehehhe

Christmas present

I was gettin ready to go out last night when i found this sitting on my driveway. My cat brought me an early Christmas present. She somehow managed to catch a freakin bat. Ugh. Yuck.

Movie Day

Finally, i managed to coerce people into watching King Kong with me. I know, old show but hey ive been busy trying to make money.

Movie was a little bit draggy (10 mins staring at the sunset), and king kong reminded me of a spoilt chauvinistic male (i want to own this girl and only this girl) but on the whole it was pretty good. Except if you nitpick at small details too much you might end up spoiling the movie (eg - how come shes so clean?)

Oh yea .. and NEver Ever take little kids who cant sit still or shut up during a three hour long movie. I swear, i felt like smacking the little boy behind me who couldnt sit still. Argh.

Tomorrow is Friday!! :) Damn sleepy right now cos i dragged myself out of bed at an ungodly hour to go for breakfast with jit shiong, jooi hong and vila .. And it must be the drinks or the curry mee cos came back with a bellyache, dammit. But still.. im glad i got to meet up with them one last time before we head back to our respective unis to start a new sem.

Still more people i have yet to meet up with, though.. Im running out of time.

Oh yea.. i got to see Jit shiongs sugar gliders as well .. damn cute little buggers .. it jumped on my head a couple of times, hehehe

New arrival

For the past couple of days ive been so busy baking thanks to all those people who make orders last minute that i havent introduced the latest addition to my house.

Therefore i now introduce Shots. Isnt she cute? Picked her up from the roadside after Terri's birthday :) Couldnt resist .. she was around my legs before we entered the restaurant, still there outside halfway through the meal and tried to follow us in .. And i caved. How can anyone say no to a face soo cute??

Enlightenment.

For the past week, many people have been coming up to me and asking me whats going on. I guess its finally time to spill the beans, since we all deserve to know the truth. Have a good look .. here's the girl who said to my face she doesnt need her friends.

The wonders never cease

HMmmm... its amazing to what extent a person can go for a guy .. to defend a guy .. to defend their own interests.

I finally see the light.

The person i thought i could trust, the person whom i thought was my friend, the person whom i stuck my neck out for to defend turned around and stabbed me in the back .. for the past six months. While she showed me a happy face all the while, little did i know that she was silently trashing me. Looking back, i guess i should have seen it coming. What a fool i am for trusting someone who obviously didnt value me. I guess the cliche is true - looks can be decieving.

I suppose when even friends can be thrown away for the sake of a stranger, its time to surpass all bitterness and leave for the happy place.

So long.

Happy Birthday!!!!

Its Terris birthday today!1

Happy 21st Birthday Terri!!

Heres wishing happy birhday to the girl ive known (but didnt talk to) since standard two :)

Hope everythin goes your way next year .. cos you deserve it.

Results Out Today!!

Results are out!!

Well, not actually the results but you can check your gpa and cgpa at healthycampus.usm.my

Its wiered .. why is it the gpa is out before the grades? Hmmm..

Michelle is back with my purple happy cat!!! Only three more to go to complete the set :)

Reminiscence

Some things are fragile, once broken; cannot be regained.

Looking back, its suprising how much one can put ones neck on the line just for old times sake.

And when it comes to a point where you wake up and realise : is it even worth it?, you know somethings not quite right anymore.

When you finally had enough of the "tepuk sebelah tangan" stuff, its time to make a change. Cut your losses and let go ...

Be free of the past that drags you down.

Tonight

Tonight ...

Is a night to get completely wasted

:)

Duduklah atas pagar..

When things get split into two sides, even sitting in the middle can get you in trouble.

I swore i wouldnt get involved, yet somehow i am now. Dammit.

I think im just gonna sit in my room with my two feng shui cats (third one on the way) and watch anime.

Watch Elfen Lied. Highly reccommended.

I need a good nap

Im more than half way through my hols.. and im dead tired.

Somethings bothering me, but i dont know what cos ive been waking up regularly at about five in the morning. And of course when you go back to bed then wake up again you end up feeling like shit. Arghhh... I cant believe it .. im gonna end up going back to uni as tired as i was when i came back from that hell hole.

Everyones back, with Vila the last person to arrive yesterday. I wonder, though if anything will change. Maybe one extra person to test cookies in ishuets house..

Theres a storm brewing. I hope to hell i dont end up in the middle of it.

Need some $$

Im BAck!

From a rather unproductive trip .. I have amazingly returned with barely any clothes.. except for a really nice beige jacket. Instead, i managed to spend a load of cash on odd items like candles, mugs, and pillows. Christmas pressies, ya know ?? Oh yea .. and my nikes .. my pretty nikes :) and a bag .. and underwear ... I didnt manage to get an external HD during my visit to the PC fair (god, i forgot how much i hate that place) but i did manage to scrape up enough dough for my altec lansing speakers and headphones .. oooo :).

Im not supposed to eat or drink anything after midnight today.

Its odd how you suddenly feel lke doing things when you've been specifically told not to. I really, really want a drink of water..

Sigh. Tomorrows gonna be a long, long day.

Keep your fingers crossed for me..

Going places

Im going to KL! :)

Hopefully i'll be back with some goodies .. i need a new set of speakers, a new pair of headphones (pig chewed up the wire), blank dvds and if my budget can manage, an external HD... And along the way hopefully i get to do some CNY shopping!! Cross your fingers, hope that i make lots and lots of money.

Its been a very packed week so far .. this week, i got about as much sleep as i did in uni .. from 13 hours a day (average only lah) last week to about five or six (??) this week .. which is why i woke up with a fever and sniffles ( Kar Loon, YOU PASSED IT TO ME AGAIN!!). But thanks to the power of modern drugs and a whole day in bed, im ready to go .. now i just need to pack ... hmmmm.. how many shirts can you wear in a day ?? Even harder, how many days can i go wearing the same bra??

Dammit. .. decisions decisions ... I hope i finish packing by the time its morning:)

One week over ..

All too soon one week of hols have passed. Jon has gone back to uni, ishuet has just finished her papers, chai is in kl and my boxes of uni stuff have yet to be unpacked (dammit what have i been doing??). Oh yea .. and my guinea pig is still sick :(

I thought i'd be lonely after jon left - but thanks to my buddies ive had plenty to do so far. Terri and I have been baking cookies in Ishuets house.. Yup Yup .. cookies .. Anyone wanna buy?? Choccie chips or raisins .. take your pick .. we put good stuff in k .. branded ingrediants ... heheheh ...

Will be going down to KL with the girls soon .. time to have a little break, go for a little holiday, do a little shopping ... :P Next week and the week after that promises to be major fun !!!

Heheheheh ....

Very long overdue (sorry la, have to study) but im finally gonna post up a few pics from Andreas birthday party .. Sorry la ishuet .. your page take damn long to load ler ..

Picnic

Quest : To find something fun and inexpensive to do during the hols

What did we come out with? A good old fashioned picnic by the beach :)

Hehehe .. free and fun. What more can you ask for? We packed up our blanket, sandwiches ( i make good ham-egg-cheese sandwiches k! ) and junk and headed to the beach for a day of baking in the sun and doing absolutely nothing. And after weeks and weeks of having something to do, i can finally do NOTHING!!

Only sad thing is that i didnt scrape up the guts to go for a horse ride :)

Once again, Im so so glad i live on an island .. surrounded by water .. where the beach is only a half hour drive away. Something most penangites take for granted till they leave.

Suprisingly, it was pretty crowded .. with people (reflexology seems to be the new money making business on the beach), horses and pigeons. Since when were there pigeons on the beach anyway?? Oh well .. if you can find cobras in paya terubong i guess pigeons on the beach is pretty normal..

Yes, i know i look odd - i wasnt ready for the camera.

*Thanks :)*

Next thing to do : Go swimming!!! I wanna go swimming!! Lets go swimming!!

It is Alive!!

IM BACK!!!

Yup yup .. after a month of absence and cramming in my humble little hostel room im BACK! Finals are over (finally) and im raring to have some fun. I swear, ive never crammed so much before in my entire life.. model student .. waking up around six every morning and going to bed around one .. i did nothing but study and watch stuff on my laptop. Managed to go through season 2 of carnivale, season 1 of desperate housewives and season 3 of scrubs .. heheheh ... i ran out of things to watch .. and eat. In the two weeks of study break i had there i managed to finish ten packets of instant noodles.. Ahhh... the joys of being a student :) .. Thats the last time im taking 20 credits.

Anyways, finished all seven of my papers, packed one semesters worth of junk into boxes (no idea how i managed to collect that much stuff(and now im back!!) So happy so happy :). Call me call me!! I wanna go have some fun .. its time to get this ass up and moving! I swear i could feel all the mass of my body slowly gravitating towards my ass as i sat at the table every day. I overdosed on coffee (worried i fall asleep during my paper mah) and lack of sleep has given me eyebags bigger than my eyes and zits have started poppin out on my forehead. After my last major paper i slept for fifteen hours .. heheheh ..

I dont wanna think about my papers - plenty of time to mull over my results in a months time.

Im outta here .. time to enjoy myself! I earned it :)

Like an Onion?

Im slowly falling apart, piece by piece under the pressure of too much work, too much stress and not enough sleep (damn uni life.. whoever said uni years were the best of you life werent mech students in usm). And at the same time, so are my PC speakers. ARghh.. my trusty harmon kardons have finally reached the end of their life span. I need a new pair of speakers. Sob Sob.

My eyebags have eyebags. Even more sobs.

Finals are comin and i still know nothing about plane stress or Mohrs circle or biaxial bending or eccentrically loaded members. Its times like these where i dont know what possessed me to pursue an honours degree in mechanical engineering. I swear, i should have stuck to my original plan and taken interior design .. or baking.

Far cry from engineering, huh?

Neway, a couple of incidents happened this week which all involved someone(or some people) taking others for granted. I sat back and pondered over it, and i have come to realise that the longer you know someone (or more accurately, the better you know someone) the more likely you are to take him/her for granted. I guess its only in human nature to assume (how i hate that word now) the other party should be able to understand, after knowing you so long. But it shouldnt be that way .. you should know where your loyalty lies. And you should know whats really important to you. And i guess its disappointing to realise that someone will (and is?) taking you for granted.. and even more so that you make excuses to yourself.

Only Words..

Its been a bitch of a week, with things comin one after another after another. Doesnt help that i ended up sick by monday morning (ugh, presentation at 8.30am with no voice) and i stayed sick for the next couple of days. Darn flu, im blaming in on Kar Loon. My powers of recovery are amazing though so after spending about 15 hours sleeping (with a bathroom trip in between) i turned out fine.

This week has been jammed pack with assingments, test, extra classes and presentations but that wouldnt be the only reason why this whole week gave me a major headache and big puffy eyes. There were a couple of inccidents which made me stop, think and review my current situation. Its not easy when youre pushed away. Its not easy to have to come to a point where you realise you arent what you once were .. its not easy to come to look in the mirror and realise what you have become. Even more so when you hate what you turned into. Then you wonder 'what happened to me? And its not easy to have to think if everything is worth it. The world kinda comes crashing down on you once you realise that things you were once so certain of are not certain anymore. Its not that simple to just go on and pretend nothing happend.

After a few days of mulling things over in solitude, i have come to realise its not my fault. And that there are some things which i have no control of. There is a middle path to everything, and there is no need for me to feel guilt for wanting more time .. or wanting company .. or sympathy (i know la, damn manja).

Sticks and stones may break my bones; but words will never hurt me.

Whoever said that was obviously lying. Cos words hurt .. and i still maintain my stand that noone should ever deserve to be yelled and cursed in a fit of anger. Not even a dog.

Mechatronics Project - Finished at Last!

As you may probably have figured out, ive been really busy the past week with various projects and assignments. But i just had to show off our completed mechatronics project.

Task: to build a system using a conveyor belt, single or double acting cylinders, a PLC, valves and sensors and to write its program.

It took us one whole day of skipping classes, just to build it, never mind the concept and the program etc etc.. and im very, very proud of it, k? Might not look like much (what to do, low budget mah..) but hey, it works .. and its cute. I'll put a movie clip just to show off oncw ivw converted it to a .swf file cos my pic host doesnt accept avi formats. Dang. Anyway, just praise me, make me happy k:)

Our wiring for the PLC. Complicated leh .. we're very proud of it, no help at all :) We skipped classes to stay in the FMS room all day to work on it.. bad idea cos three hours into the project i got a call from my roomie - thermo quiz!! We had to run from our building all the way to the lecture theatre..and me in my roomies shoes, one size to small..

One last pic..couldnt resist. had to go scavenging around for all those parts.. it pays to make friends with the technicians :) Finished at last.. so happy :) .. now all thats left is about a ton of paperwork.. sigh..i should have just taken up baking.. ive found more than one person willing to be my silent partner..eheheh

The fourth years were there doing there robotics and automation project... massive machinary .. but they assemble these really cute little houses.

Pics!!

I know, i know .. way overdue but ive been busy. Really, really busy. My dean is proud to say that second year mechanical students are the busiest on campus. I, however dont find it quite that fun. I turn green with envy when i see the students from materials and mineral resources free every afternoon.

Anyway, i celebreated my birthday last week.. just a small thing with the girls.. Chai came back from KL (i didnt know she was comin) and boy was i surprised when her car pulled up at Ishuets house. First thing i thought was ??Chai Yin driving terri? Terri borrowed chai's car?? hahaha.. imagine my surprise when Chai popped out .. *Thanks Chai!* And i had a small celebration just with Jon the week before that :). Thanks to all of you who made growing a year older in the middle of a jungle not as bad as it could have been *hugz*

We went for dinner in Tambun.. Being girls, we had no idea that there was a football match at Batu Kawan that night.. it took forever to reach there, cos of the jam and two accidents. Oh yea .. we have no idea who those two dudes are standing in the pic. A mystery... jeng jeng jeng

And i just had to put in the pic of yu ming and drey.. we call it " the two lesbian friends" eheheh..

This is Chai, on the way back from Tambun. We were bored.. its a long drive k..

This shot was taken while trying to set the timer on the cam. Notice Chai is the only one staring at the camera..

This is what a group pic is supposed to look like.

And since it was just us girls and in ishuets house, we decided to try our hand at mixing drinks.

Look at our cocktails!! Arent they a pretty colour? From left to right you see our version of Lemon Drop, Vodka Orange, Sangaria, Green Froggy, Ishuets creation and Screwdriver

Self explanatory.. but i think pics look so funny without captions..

See Mun all red and happy :)

Our booze bottles and the little thingy that sat on top of my cake

Drinking makes you hungry so we went to McDonalds :) Praise the dude who came up with the idea of a 24 hour drive thru!!!

This is me .. in the car.. at McDs .. with Yu Mings foot next to me. And i never noticed it was there

Thank you thank you!! I had a great time that week, and the week before that (Love you baby..)

More pics available, but since im not too sure about the nature of the shots .. i wont be posting them up. And i only got the pics from chais camera today, im much too lazy to upload them.

Loads of work to be done.. USM SUCKS!! USM ONLY WAITS TILL THE LAST POSSIBLE MOMENT TO TELL YOU THAT THEY'VE SCHEDULED TWO TESTS, ONE VIVA, AND TWO PRESENTATIONS ALL IN THE SPACE OF FIVE DAYS! ARGGHHH!!1

Ahem. As you see, im quite stressed. Excuse me.

Fuzzy

Its 1.34 in the morning .. i should have started on my strength of materials paper by now .. but im still here. Hmmm.. i procrastinate way, way too much. Bad habit, i know. Sigh.

This sem, ive had projects or assignments for every single subject. And out of all those ive had to redo three of em a day or two prior to handing them up because I DIDNT READ THE INSTRUCTIONS! Or because some wise ass decided to go up to the lecturer to clarify things and gave the lecterer the bright idea of either a) having more criteria or b) adding something else to do. And right now, i and a few friends would happily take my trusty ten year old car and run the culprit over. And over. And over. Hahahahahah...

Okay .. im gonna hide my horns ..

Okay .. back to work. I have three more things to do before i am (hopefully) free!! All i need to complete now is a four page hand written hand illustrated good handwriting (damn the lecturer) paper on strain gauges, a three page BM presentation on petrol prices (and memorise it too..) and a conveyor belt system for my mechatronics.

I hate it here.

Happy Birthday to Me

Happy Birthday to Me!

Yup .. its that time of the year again .. im now officially 21 years old.. How scary.. So this weekend after i put aside all my projects and all my assignments, its time to celebrate :)

Another day ,. Just breathe

Hmm.. another day passes and it brings me no closer to the end of my projects. Sigh.

I dont really like birthdays. My birthdays, that is. Im not sure why though. Maybe its cos birthdays have never been a thing in my household. Actually, all types of celebrations arent really the in thing in my house. Hmm.. And as i got older, i could never celebrate my birthday cos even though im lucky enough to be born a Libra (Libra rules!!) im cursed to have my birthday fall smack in between some sort of exam every single year. PMR... SPM .. STPM .. trials .. finals.. you name it.. So yea .. guess i just aint used to celebrating it.

But maybe its cos im here, in PB .. i guess a birthday is like christmas or valentines or new years .. just those times where you really dont wanna be alone .. cos its one of those days that are supposed to mean something. Or maybe its just the fact that another year has passed and i still have accomplished nothing. Whatever it may be, it doesnt change the fact that im still stuck here (ive now found four people who wanna transfer out of this hell hole) and im still alone (banyaknya projek untuk disiapkan. .. woooo...).

Obituary

Pig was brutally mauled to death by one of the damn hostel cats. He was sitting in his cage and the damn cat still got him. I dont understand how. I'm gonna give that cat a damn good kick if i ever see it again. I miss my Pig. I really, really loved him. He's never gonna squeak to me in the mornings, or stick his nose out of the cage for me to pet. Its not fair. Its never fair.

Jon left for KL an hour ago. Its not fair either .. the moment i get used to him being around again he has to go back.

Surprise surprise

Its been one hell of a week so far. For the past two and a half weeks ive been waking up at somewhere between 4 to 5 am every morning in uni. Regardless of what time i get up. Its annoying .. now i wake up everyday feeling more tired then when i go to bed.

Been trying to pack all my work into this week so i can finish it and go to watch Stomp. Yes, i wanna go that badly.. because of that, ive slaved over my mechatronics assignment ( i finished my circuit design!!), i slaved over my thermo tutorial and ive been killing myself trying to translate pages and pages about the abrasive machining process into english. Its torture, i tell you.. try translating this :

abrasive machining is a material removing process where the abrasive grits interact with the work surface at high cutting speeds and shallow penetration depths.

So i dig into a dictionary and come out with this:

abrasive = pelelas
machining = pemesinan
process = proses

therefore

abrasive machining process = proses pemesinan pelalas ??!!??

Argghh!!!! And i have to do twenty four pages of this crap?? *(%&^

Sigh. Anyhow, i guess it doesnt really matter anymore. They had to spring this up on my today : test on friday morning. Which completely ruins my plans to watch stomp this time around. Haih ... looks like i'll never get the chance...

Anyway, its Michelle's birthday today!

Oo... so many birthdays in september .. Happy birthday girl!!

Sexually explicit?

I found these online .. completely hilarious!!!

Hahaha. .. superboy getting spanked by his daddy for being a bad boy ... Something just sounds so wrong. Superboy as the whipped bondage slave ...i wonder what he did to deserve the spanking.

Hahahahahha

its not fair...

I am so so PISSED. Females can be so petty. My English teacher hates me. And it shows when it came to her reviews of our English oral presentations.

Guess what? Mine doesn’t even have a rating. When she reached my name :

Hmmm .. Lisa .. well … Eye contact good, voice good, confidence okay … but you need to work on your enthusiasm.

Guess what? She said nothing about enthusiasm to anyone else. Nope. . all they got were comments on there grammar, eye contact, voice .. WHY ME?

Yea well… apparently my speakin has grammatical flaws as well. BUT guess what? Second best presenter was someone who says things like ‘ Today I would like to share with you about my topic which is the secret to happy’

WTF???? Even a high school student should be able to point out the glaringly obvious error in that sentence. There were similar mistakes throughout her presentation too. Funnily enough, my teacher said nothing about her grammar. Just the usual ‘eye contact good, voice good, confidence good ..’ Tell me.. am I bitching over nothing?? What is the mark of a good presentation then? That you have the ability to suck up to the teacher and win her heart? Oh yea .. and fyi I have nothing against the girl.. shes really nice.. I do, however have a very big thing against the third best presenter .. damn apple polisher. Her voice wasn’t all that loud and she was probably less enthusiastic than I was. I quote the teacher ‘you need to work on your eye contact, you tend to stare only at one certain spot. A few grammatical errors but its normal’ so … remind me again .. why is she rated third? Damn bitch. Now just so you don’t think im full of myself, I did go around asking what other more objective people thought of my presentation. Feedback was that my presentation was pretty good and they were surprised about the choice of second best.

IT NOT FAIR.

To satisfy me (or shut me up) Kar Loon suggest we go see the lecturer and find out what she’s looking for in a good presentation (read: COMPLAIN). Its so hot. And im so pissed its making me feel even hotter. Which is why im sitting here without a shirt on. Im pissed off and I cant be bothered anymore.

Happy Birthday!!

Its Audreys birthday today!!

Happy 21st Bday Drey!

This is the girl ive known definitely for more than half my life.. all the way back to kindy.. i must have been like four? She celebrated her birthday last weekend in her aunts house down in tanjung tokong. We were all there to make alot of noise as usual .. hahaha .. so cheers girl.. hope you have a blessed birthday!

Oh yea ... as promised .. pics of my newly altered head:

Yes .. its me .. a little bit blurry though (what to do, using webcam mah .. ). The position is a little odd cos im lying on my bed with one hand sticking out to hold the curtains shut so that sun doenst come in and i end up looking all 'glowy'.

Just like this ..

STOMP

I wanna go i wanna go i wanna go!!!!!

Any takers?

Woo Hoo

Hey hey!! Ive finally gotten around to doing something with my hair. Result? A whole brand new hairstyle! What started out as a simple trip to the hairdressers to get highlights turned out into much more than that. I have problems saying no to a flyer, how can i refuse an enthusiastic heirdresser?? Anyways, pics will be up soon .. And even if you dont like it say you like it!! Cos i already did it and now i need to fish for compliments :)

Its TzeLins birthday today.

Happy 21st Bithday Tzelin!!

Folks, this is someone who can always be counted on to make me smile .. best wishes girl .. hope everything works out allright for you. Cheers!

...

Although im trying to keep the blog uppdated, i dont have much to sya today. SO much has happened, yet i still have nothing to say.

It hasnt been a very good day, or night for that matter and i really dont want to wallow in my miseries and rant on my blog so .. nothing to say today.

Maybe the next update will have more substance.

My friend told me that tears that flow from different parts of your eyes mean different things. I was wondering though .. if tears are bodily fluid, could you cry yourself to death? Cry till you dehydrate and shrivel up like a prune? Assuming of course, that you dont have any liquid intake. From the first law of thermodynamics, net energy applied to a system is equal to the net work done by the system. Does it run true for bodily functions?

Waiting .. and waiting .. and waiting..

Oh my god .. the connection from my room in uni is so damn slow ... so slow .... i managed to memorise my presentation while waiting for my pages to load. So slow .. if you try to download anything not from the network ... it hangs halfway .. so slow ... my msn messages dont reach the other person .. so slow .. that its like poking my eyes out with a spork ... its torture i tell you .. its slower than my dial at back at home. I cant upload pics to my blog. I cant download codecs for my pc. I cant even update my virus definations. ARGGHHHHHH!!!!

So, in between classes today (see, i don ponteng di!) i ran over to the pc lab. Loads of people here today so i sat at the nearest pc without scouting around. I dont know if its my damn bad luck or somthing but IT TOOK LIKE SIX MINUTES FOR THE DAMN PC JUST TO START UP!!! I could take a nap in the time between pressing the on button and waiting for everything to load. Its disgraceful. Speaking of disgraceful ...

I have fat in places where i didnt have before. What was once hard muscle is now .. well .. not that firm anymore. Im still thinking if i should be bothered and actually get off my ass and do something about it. Its hard staying with skinny roomies.

Good Tidings fr Langkawi

My baby is back from Langkawi and came back with goodies for me!!! Yay yay .. Thanks!!

Checking inventory .. this is what i have :

1. A giant bag of M&M's
2. One bar of Cadbury Old Jamaica Rum and Raisin
3. One bar of Cognac filled chocolate
4. One bar of Cointreau filled chocolate
4. One bottle of Absolut Vodka
5. Essential oil scented candles

Yes, my baby didnt forget about me .. and i now have plenty of choocies to munch on and a bottle of vodka for those sad lonely times.. Thanks!

He's gone back to uni..its something i dont think i'll ever quite get used to. Its hard.. all the coming and going and having to consider the time factor. I miss him already. Oh well.. Three weeks to go ..

Am i? Am i not?

Its the end of my hols (what, already?) and its time to go back to uni (damn). Anyways, though i havent touched any of the work i brought back to do, i have managed to meet up with loads of people, ive had a blast :).

Chai came back a couple of days ago and because of her and her itch, we went to chill out. A last minute thing, where we moved from sitting at gurney drive to dancing in chill out. Oh yea, and i didnt get stopped this time, haha.. No drinks (no money to buy la) just few girls out to dance and have a good time. Anyways, ive been called an awful lot of things in my life but never this : I was dancing and some guy leaned over to Chai and asked if i was stoned cos i was dancing and dancing .. ( Duh, takkan go club and stand there ah?) I still dont know if i should be deeply insulted or not. Hmmm..

Looks like i'll never have to pop pills to get stoned, apparently i can do it pretty convinvingly with nothing except a bottle of blueberry kampai.

Dont read this

As i sit here at home once again by myself on my holiday that isnt a holiday, i wonder : why am i sitting here at home by myself? A couple of years ago, i was somewhat happening, or at the very least i didnt spend all my free time in front of a computer screen. Now, i have to correct the few people left who are still under the illusion that im happening. What happened and where am i going?

Whenever i roam about alone, or with my girlfriends, at least seventy percent of the time someone will ask me the dreaded question: wheres your boyfriend? And each time, it gets harder and harder for me to say 'oh, hes out with his friends' while trying to convince them and myself that it doesnt really matter. When it does. So, how much time is enough time? Some people think that the couples spend all their time together (yes, someone just said so five minutes ago). So does that mean its just a myth? Or am i some sort or exception? How much time is reasonable? Is it hoping for too much that i get to spend some time with him, given the fact that hes going back sunday morning? Or am i supposed to sit on the sidelines like a cheerleader and be supportive and understanding that he needs to spend most of his time with the guys? Maybe im under the delusion that the guy is supposed to be prince charming. makes it even worse that i see couples every where and people i know in a relationship spend alot of their time together.

Argh. Its getting to complicated. I need to go out. Or at least get myself stoned to the point where i dont know nuts.

Celebrating Independence

Its the eve of Independence Day. Its roughly ten pm, Terri has just dropped me home and will drop ishuet home shortly. We left Gurney still clad in shorts and slippers about the same time everyone started coming. I see a whole load of people, mostly younger than i am. Someones sister, someones brother, juniors .. all who wave and say hi and continue on there way in as we make our way out. Get out before the crowd comes and the jam starts. I guess its a process of aging. Sad. Almost dissappointing, really. But then again, its dissappointing for other reasons which you may or may not know but that doesnt really matter cos its not my point.

So do you gracefully withdraw yourself from overrated social gatherings as you grow up? Or do you go, and hang on to whatever left while you still can? A year ago, i was probably there with the crowd, two years .. i was probably still there. . next year? Probably not. Same goes for new years and other less meaningful celebrations.

Oddly enough while i spent me night at home with my laptop the questions come one by one : why you still at home? not going out tonight? what you doing at home along? etcetera et cetera .. So, what am i doing at home? I dont know.. not exactly quite happy being there but no much of a choice i guess.. time to settle down? I dont know .. maybe i never will be able to settle. Maybe i need to keep on running. Maybe people dont really settle, they jsut find others to run with..

See Mun calls my unwillinges to sit at home hong sou. I just contribute it to the moles on my feet.

Photoblogging?

Me :)

My Ikea lamp .. (Seen this before Benny?)

My burn

Yup... i managed to get myself burnt.. again. I went around for almost a week lookin like there was a mini leech stuck to my hand. Ewww..

Rant Rant Rant

Im back for hols.

Sorry Benny, youre gonna have to wait again for the Ikea lamp. Already got a pic, just too damn lazy to upload it :) Another time yea .. and when are we gonna go for supper??

The unfairness of it all. I come back for hols, yet Chai and Vilas hols dont start till a week after mine. To add to that, my hols and jons hols are at the same time. Great, wouldnt you think? Except that he's on his way to langkawi for three days and two nights with his male buddies who also happen to be staying at his place one night before and two days after the trip to langkawi. And i dont even get a bottle of bacardi!!!! He'll be leaving early sunday morning so that basically doesnt leave me much time. Sigh. I know, im being bitchy and selfish, blahdy blahdy but cut me some slack, i deserve a little time and space to rant. Make things even better, i have two tests and two presentations straight after the hols and my english teachers a dumb bitch. And to top it off, the week Chai comes back for hols i have a test on FRIDAY FROM 8-10PM!!!! I dont even have classes on friday afternoon, i could be home by three but nooooo.... now i get to go home at midnight.

Let me bitch, THIS ABSOLUTLY SUCKS. Its like one of my strength of materials questions : the soalan tanpa soalan. This is a holiday thats not a holiday. Argh. I already feel stressed just thinking about it.

Too many What Ifs.

If you dont love
If you dont care
If nothing matters
Youd be inhuman

But

Youd never hurt.
Is it worth it?

Confessions of an Anaemic

Another week gone by. Fifth week of uni has ended and i still know nuts about my course. Sigh. Why engineering?? Why ? WHy????

I was holdin a plate of glass in one hand, rubbing vigorously at a smudge on it with the my t shirt.. Maybe a little too vigorously cos the glass pane i was holding still didnt quite stay still and ...

Ugh .. blood .. dripping ..
No pain .. stare at my slit finger. .. wait .. here it comes. ..OUCH!
Ooo .. everythings going fuzzy .. static.. theres a roaring in my ears ... ahh .. need to sit down ...

Hmmm.. spots seem to be clearing up.. i can see again!!

This is why i cannot donate blood.

Lost in Space

Okay.. ive made up my mind and i'll soon be a member of the golden key international honour society, malaysian chapter.

But, you gotta pay your membership fees, right? ytc and i figured that the cash wont be going to waste. Only problem is they dont accept cash - its check or money order. I defnitely dont have a check book and the uni post office is too small to sell money orders. Which poses another problem : where is the parit buntar post office? noone i know goes to the post office outside campus, why should they when you can mail stuff right from uni? anyways, after asking around ytc managed to get the vague direction of "its somewhere near the roundabout lah .. turn somewhere there..".

We set off in the direction to town, passed the roundabout and by a great stroke of luck turned into a road where we spotted the post office a little of the main road we were on. keeping my eyes on the post office, i took a left into the road the post office was on and headed straight to it.

Only then did i realise that the road i turned in was a one way street .. and i was headed in the wrong direction. I took a u turn .... right in front of a police station.. with a policeman outside.

I bought a lamp from IKEA!

To summarise the day ...

1. After more than a week, Hxn noticed that i cut my hair. And that was only cos he was walking behind me instead of beside or in front of me. YTC never noticed at all. Guys. Blind.

2. After two days, they noticed i was wearing a belt. Maybe the fact that it was bright red helped. When i said i was cos i was tired of having my jeans a little loose and the back sticking out so half the world could stare down my ass, YTC said something that stunned me: "i though girls had the back of their pants open cos they wanted guys to stare down thiere ass" . I did not expect that .. Apparently, he (therefore all males?) think that girls dress the way they do (super jarang) because they want to attract male attention. So if the back of your pants cant stay closed, or your shirt is a little bit too short and rides up when you stand on tippy toe, or if your shirt is a little transparent and you wore the wrong bra .. its on purpose .. to attract more male attention. In his own words "if they all wear like that then no one see wasted mah...".

3. I wore a new shirt (everyone i know knows i went down to KL to shop) which people noticed but i wasnt prepared for this either : "Eh you look so pretty today? How come i never see you look so pretty before wan?". So i could just take the compliment and shut up nd be happy, or take it as a wake up call that everyday i "dont look pretty".

4. Ooo, the Milo van came today!! Free milo :). I was on the way to class after lunch when i spotted the Milo van and went over to grab my share of free Milo when i spotted good lookin singh (or indian?) man!! Like Gurjit kinda good lookin, only not that good lookin. Trust me, in my uni, good lookin men are a rarity. Definitely not my year, and most definitely not in my school but oh well.. Singh dude talked to me! Okay, so the conversation wasnt really a conversation; it started with a smile ( i smile at anyone who smiles at me k ) and he said

Here for the free Milo?

Duh. Why else would i be standing next to the Milo man? To get Uncle Milos autograph ah? Oh yea .. i got a 'bye' as well :)

5. EMM221 Test 1. After slogging over my damn strength of materials textbook, i coulnt finish the paper anyway. Question 2: WTF?? Only consolation is that out of 4 people i spoke to after that, none of them knew how to do it. Apparently when my lecturer said he plans to raise the standard and make us fail, he really meant it, the SOB. Friend was lucky enough to take it last sem, told me it wasnt that bad - But too many people scored A's last sem, so they changed the happy lecturer to my SOB. $@%$!.

Back!!

Im back from KL. I tell ya, you wanna know what the world would look like if it was gonna end? You should have been there when the haze reached an all time massive API .. somewhere above 300 in PJ.. above 400 in Port Klang. Shit, the papers said hail stones fell. The world is coming to an end soon. It was so bad, there was haze inside the shoppin mall. You could smell it indoors, you could smell it from the bus. Ugh. Eternally gloomy skies, neither bright nor dark.. no rays of sunshine.. lights on in the afternoon.. Looked like a bloody warzone. This must have been what the world looked like when the dinosaurs faced extinction.

Nuff said, the haze cleared up considerably by friday night, and the skies were clear again by saturday. And on sunday, it poured till there were flash floods. Freaky.. go into Alamanda while its hot and sunny, come out two hours later and the sky is so dark and the rain so heavy KL town cant be seen. See, im a bringer of good things :). The same day the haze cleared up in the south though, it started in the Northen side. Yup. I leave Penang, and head down to haze. Then i leave KL and still head home to haze. Ironic. Sigh.

That said, i got my shopping done, i met Vila and Ben and Chai. So yea. . mission accomplished, im a happy woman. All thats left is for Jon to get me my lucky cat. Pics will be up when a)i get some decent connection speed or b)when chai finally mails the pics in her camera to me. By the way, we were the only 'tourists' in Hartamas Square taking photographs. Jon said he cant show his face there anymore..

Cheerios!

Problem Solving

The left side of my orange slippers finally fell apart on me about a week and a half ago. Since then, i have had neither the time nor money to go get myself a new pair. Slippers aint cheap ya know .. everything i came across was way over my rm10 budget.

Since mine tore, ive been randomly using my roomies slippers.. but i cant do that forever now can i? And since engineers are apparently people who solve problems ....

My attempts at putting my poor slipper back together ..

I started off with one poor, not so old broken slipper..

Then i nicked my roomies UHU Glue to try stick it back.. which lasted approxmately half a day. Next time, buy elephant glue when you need to do something a little bit more heavy duty.

Reanalyse the problem. Hmmm...

If the Uhu cant make a permanent bond, i'll have to make it as permanent as possible. At least so my slipper will last till i buy epoxy. If i cant glue it together, i can staple it together! So, armed with stapes (once again nicked from my roomie) i glued the offending part back then stapled the seams together. Its been holding so far, but the damn staples are poking the soles of my feet. Which is why ive stuck fabric plasters over the staples!

Arent i smart??

Ladies and gentlemen, there you have it : The future engineer of Malaysia.