Finally Finished!!! The Radical Crutch!!

You know you've been up too long staring at a com screen when

1. Your vision gets blurry. And when you rub your eyes it gets worse.
2. When you finally look away from the screen you can still see it. And little blinky lights. And blinky lines.
3. You dont have eyebags anymore, you have goldfish eyes.
4. You hear the morning prayers call before you've gone to sleep
5. You feel that your slowly turning blind and stupid.

This week has been a killer. Ever since ive been back from CNY hols, its been juggling time between our design project work and tests. And finally, today, the memorable 24th of February 2005, we hand up our completed project. No more sleeping, eating and living design. No more sleeping at odd hours for nights on end. Im free!!!!!!

Just for this evening, that is.

I'm so proud of what we did that I have pics of it. I know you're probably not interested but humour me :) I wanted to post up the animation but i thought that would be going overboard. Check out ------> the Radical Crutch

Our work in process. Finally finished and handed up today! For the first time in ages i have time to myself. I came back this afternoon and i didnt know what to do. So i slept..

The Solid Model of our Project. Cant actually see the whole thing but looks good?? RIght???? Damn good job if i must say so myself considering that we only assembled and animated everything last night. We were up in the cafeteria till three to do this, getting eaten alve by mozzies before we respectively pulled all nighters in our room to finish it up. Bangganya!!

With that and my shitty Lab test and C++ finished (in both ways) i have finally cleared my room and dumped all that stuff under my bed so i can actually see my table top once more.

Something important to do tomorrow. Cross your fingers, wish me luck.

Library TRIP

Embarassment of the day : i fell.

I was in the library to renew a very overdue book. So i was walking around, making some small talk, got my book back and i left. Standard library trip right? Then i fell. Was walking out of the library with my book, went down the stairs and ... my ankle gave way on me. So i fell. Down the stairs. With my book and my bag and my umbrella. Not very gracefully. Major embarrasment. Thankfully, there are no hot hunks in PB.

You'd think after so many years i'd have at least learnt how to fall gracefully, but noo... i had to make a great scene. So i picked up my stuff and skedaddled as fast as i could. I will NOT go to the library tomorrow.

Oh wait.. ACHIEVEMENT OF THE DAY: I have yet to have a cup of coffee! Althought i've spent half the day only half awake, its still an achievement right??? See.. im not that addicted to caffein

Neways, pics as promised ..

Girls night out .. this was taken shortly before Hui Min returned to US. We'll see you in a year !

Dinner at Teluk Kumbar .. we stuffed outselves silly with seafood..

Girly get-together .. Ishuet and me

See Muns Birthday!! The first of us to turn 21 .. Happy B'day girl!!!

At Jit Shiongs Birthday.Yes i know he's not in the pic but he's too busy outside barbequeing the food for all us lazy girls inside ..

This would be me at See Muns barbeque. Im holding an umbrella to protect our lamb from the rain. Had a blast that day.. i won myself 15 bucks gambling :). Not bad for a beginner eh?

Yi Wenns 21st birthday! Another girl turning 21.

Biscuit and Cow. This is what Jesie and I did one evening when we were too bored on campus. Bored engineering students have a tendency to go slightly wacky

minor shit in lisa systems

This bring a rather shitty close to what has been a really long day. Makes it even longer cos it seems like two days have merged into one. Yes, i had a grand total of one and a half hours of sleep last night.. maybe more, maybe less.

Spent this week sleep deprived (i dont know why tests have to be crammed together), whole of last night (that would be thursday night) trying to complete my bloody lab report and dragged myself up this morning at 7.30 to make a little trip all over campus. This is my pathline :

room --> cafeteria --> computer center --> language center --> mechanical school --> cafeteria --> room --> cafeteria

All that distance to be covered in the space of half an hour. So i ran. Literally. Like a complete idiot running round campus in the wrong direction ( i was the only ass running away from the classes. Actually i was just the only ass running.), sweating, with my hair flying all over the place and my glasses steaming up. And not to mention that i had no dinner, no breakfast and no morning bath. All to catch the 8.30am morning bus to go home.

I caught the bus :)

On one and a half hours of sleep, i sit at the back of the rattly bus which could probably rival the motion master. I can deal with the rattling though big bumps jarr my backbone but that awful creak-creak-creak which corresponds to each bump-bump-bump of the bus and each bang of my elbow against the seat is enough to drive anyone insane. I look out the window, staring into vast nothingness, my mind completely blank. Strange. I am not sleepy. I am bored. Yet another journey back. Everyone on board seems to be asleep. I will not close my eyes. I will not let the opportunity for me to succumb to fatigue arise. Once i close my eyes, im done for. The fatigue will devour me with hungry jaws and i will not wake. I will not make it home. I have been awake for more that twenty four hours. Its amazing, i havent even had my morning coffee. I reach home and resist sleep another four hours before finally dropping into lala land sometime past twelve for a two hour nap. And im still awake. I cant sleep. I have too much to think about.

What is important? I've been searching for an answer and i still cant find it.

10 things i wish for

1. To actually fcuk it and forget it when i say so
2. To fly
3. To be selfish, to think about only me and not give a damn about what other people wanted
4. accept myself for what i am
5. multi lingual
6. less critical, of myself and others
7. unlimited pocket
8. to be different
9. to be normal
10. to have my own mind..

Princess of Theives??

I have come to a realisation : I can never be a theif.

Lost my (well not exactly mine but still, mine for the moment) very new motorbike helmet a couple of weeks ago. Since then, dinner out and bike rides to class have decreased drastically. okay, maybe having to walk to class isnt that bad. The bad part about losing a helmet that isnt mine?? I gotta replace it before i get found out. Yup, i have to get a brand new, silver coloured, full face visor Index helmet soon before my mom finds out ive lost it cos then i'll never hear the end of it. My mom still talks about the time i was twelve and lost some cert from a file. I bet she'll harp about the missing bike helmet till im 40.

Anyways, to get a new helmet would put me back somewhere around sixty bucks. Sixty bucks i cant afford, 'specially since im still indebted to Terri. So what did i do today? I put my PFS skills to work. I kinda stole it back. Ive been scouting around and i saw a helmet that looked exactly like mine. Im not too sure but it looked eactly like mine and i really dont want to shell out cash for a helmet so i grabbed it and dissappeared into the sunset. Figured someone will gain and someone has to lose, im determined to be neither. Fair trade right??

But im feeling the guilt. Im feeling really, really guilty. I think i'll go and put it back.

Looks like i'll never make it to big time bank robbery. But at least i know i'll go to heaven :)

Chinese New Year hols are over and im back in PB. My new year resolution?? To lose 3kg and get rid of the zits on my forehead by the end of one month. Wait, maybe thats too ambitious. One and a half months then. The months of pigging out and no exercise is starting to show. And if i cant be smart, at least i can look good.

Finals in less than two weeks. Im screwed.

Holiday?? What holiday??

Im BACK! For an entire week of holiday!!But seeing that i'll have to go to Ipoh for CNY, not entirely long enough. Oh well... quick update on what ive been up to so far :

1. Went pressie shoppin
2. Had a couple of celebrations (with a few more to come)
3. Catch a flu
4. Visit sir (finally)
5. Eat chocolate, watch a movie
6. Wax Terri's back!! I have pics but it seemed a little too graphic.. think Indonesian maid abuse victim...
7. Meet up with Jon. A brief but better then nothing peiod of time. Oh well.. Theres always next time..
8. Eat Mcdonalds Bfast with Chai and Terri. Some things dont change :)
9. Lose alot of sleep
10. Eat Mcdonalds breakfast AGAIN with See Mun, Polyn and Terri

Then heres what i have to do before i leave:

1. Go to Ipoh (unfortunately neccessary)
2. Meet up with Tze Lin (maybe we can do lunch???i'll be back thursday; call me if youre free, i have to see you before you go, its been ages)
3. BIRTHDAYS! Which also mean present shopping again..
4. Have dinner with Jon
5. Have a chit chat with Vila
6. See Ye Shan before she leaves, and collect my certs
7. Mahjong and fireworks: Ishuets place
8. Glo??Hey im invited right??? And im free right???
9. Actually, meet up with a number of people, but somehow given the current situation its just not possible..

Plenty of things to be done, not nearly enough time. And it doubly sucks that i neither have my own car nor a driver. Precious time wasted sittin on my arse doing nothing. Oh yea.. and i'm supposed to study.

ADJECTIVE - a word that describes a noun or pronoun.

For some reason i found this interesting. Maybe its knowing that i'd never be able to do something like that in this lifetime.

Was taking a pee at 2.15am when this thought crossed my mind : I kinda forgot i have a father.
Its so odd i almost found it funny.

Todays conversation with mother:

Me: Mum, i might be coming back tomorrow afternoon around 4. Can you pick me up?
Mum: Four ah?? Cannot la, i have to go for my reflexology at three and i might not be done till five. Maybe you can wait for me in my office till evening..
Me: I dont have you office key...
Mum: oh right.. i dont know, maybe you can see if someone else can pick you up. Maybe Terri has classes? See if you can catch a ride ..

In that 55 second conversation, she didnt mention my dad. I forgot all about him and the fact that he might be around.

And it took me almost 10 hours to realise that.

Wrong side of the bed..

Been having the same headache that kept me up last night most of today. I am grumpy and annoyed for no reason whatsoever.

Im not very sure whats going on but as of yesterday my new posts never seem to appear.. been trying to publish them over and over again but its still non existant. Oh well. Keeping my fingers crossed.

I wonder sure how my roomie does it. She can last on even less sleep then me, wakes up at any time in the morning no matter what time she sleeps (yes, she woke me up again) yet still manages to catch an afternoon nap no matter how hot, how bright, how noisy. Me? I just dont sleep, therefore cant ever wake up, then get grumpy.

Its a brand new me

Hey Hey! Its the start of a new year .. or chinese new year more like .. so i decided to change the look. Finally got around to gettin Hello so i can upload pics.. most unfortunately, nothing recent to put up cos my camera has been spending time in the hospital thus Sakura-chan right here. I promise though, more pics coming soon .. :)

Been counting the days till hols start.. seems like this sem past pretty fast though im not sure if that good or bad but guess it doesnt matter. Looking forward to seeing everyone again, specially before those aussie student leave again.. Yes, it still gets boring here.. Anyway, i was brushing my teeth using my colgate triple action toothpaste when i had a thought - how did they get the toothpaste to come out in 3 stripes??? Even after i mushed the tube up a bit, its still in 3 stripes... interesting eh?

I have a cut on the roof of my mouth. From the combined bad habit of crunching ice and chewing on straws. And it hurts. Everytime i try to take a bite of my pear or eat biscuits i can feel the little piece of skin flapping. YUCK.

When you have nothing else better to do, You Sleep.

Yup.. Its a Friday and im still on Campus.. Curse Saturday classes. Nevertheless though, i did get to see something new. It Friday. Which means down here at our most happening town PARIT BUNTAR we have the PASAR MALAM!! Yay! Something to do tonight..

If i really wanted to, i could have bought an ostrich egg (and its feet and it innards), all sorts of magical oils to increase my sexuality, to keep me glowing, to hide my unsightly bulges, to increase my errection(if i had one). I could have gotten wiered massages garanteed to keep muscle aches away and improve my blood circulation, or i could have bought the oil and done it myself. I could have bought sandals for RM12, Nike bags, NIKER bags, RM6 slippers, 5durians for RM5, crates of oranges, dresses, clothes, RM10 "non stick" kualis, gutted fish, dried fish, raw prawns, home made sambal, turtle jelly, all sorts of fruits, spices, locks, watches, radios, clocks, pesticides, insects repellent, rodent repellent.... Its amazing, the amount of stuff they can pack into a mere few streets.

Guess What I came back with??

Go on, take a guess ..

A murtabak ayam and 15 pears.
And at a grand total of RM6.50, i think i got myself a bargain.

Ugh. Saturday morning class..

NINE days to go till its time to GongXi GongXi!!

Princess, Princess

At times, i dont know if im a bitchy princess demanding too much of everything or whether all my needs really arent met. I dont know if my pathetic feelings are justified, or im simply wasting my time and making myself seem even more pathetic than i already can get. Its an odd world. No matter, i refuse to ponder over such thoughts, the very act of thinking about thinking already makes me squirm. The time is better spent trying to figure out EMH 112/3 Fluid Mechanics I which after half a sem i still cant do, still cant grasp any concepts and its getting worse with every class.
I am proud of one thinge though - i have not bitched about phone calls for quite some time.. im getting somewhere now..

This is a bad sem. This is a bad year. I may have gotten used to being here, but it doesnt mean i dont occasionally get homesick, it doesnt mean life here is any easier, it doenst mean i can do everything. Laugh at me if you must, but it doesnt change anything.

Above my head theres a lizard which just caught a huge bug bigger than its head.. its still holding on. The bug isnt giving in without a fight.. Interesting...

When you Feel Like SHit

Ever felt like a failure?

I have.

THIS SUCKS

Its the first day after making my so called Resolutions. And already i have failed.
I spent yesterday evening watching Naruto, i for some reason didnt hear the lecturer announcing THREE TIMES that class was cancelled although i was sitting there, i STILL have no textbook and i didnt manage to drop LAJ100 thanks to that old bitch in the office.
I suck at things like this.
Wouldve been able to drop if not for her. I went to the Pusat Bahasa to go look for my teacher who said i'll have to look for the Pengerusi Rancangan who inncidently went out for lunch early and came back late. Yes, i waited out there like a total complete ass. Neways, i saw her, she lectured me and told me to look for my Dean, which i did. But the whole office was empty (seems like everyone here comes back late from lunch) so i sat and waited till a nice lady came to tell me that HE WASNT IN. But being a nice lady and all, she told me to get the drop form, fill it in and pass it to her which she will pass to the dean so i can collect it the next morning. So everythings okay ... Teacher - check, pengerusi rancangan - check, dean - almost check. Until i go back to the office after running all the way back to the pusat bahasa and i meet THE BITCH. Who made a really loud fuss and chased me out of the office. I swear, some people were just put on the earth to make things hard for you.
Sigh>

*Miss you.*

Happy New 2005!!

Hey Hey!
Its New Years again.. the start of a Brand Spanking New Year .. the time where you can let go all the shit that happened last year and make new resolutions.. Which you dont exactly keep, but hey, at least i tried .. that counts for something right????
Actually, i dont remember if i made any resolutions last year, but oh well ..

This year, the big 2005, i have come to realise that i have grown old, and hopefully grown up.. a little bit. So i plan to be good :)
i will NOT succumb to evil pleasures, i will sleep in more often, spend less money, pamper myself a little bit more, worry a little less .. hmmm .. oh yea, and i will keep Wednesday as my designated anime day and try to keep a little bit more up to date about everything else around me.

Well, heres to hoping i'll keep it .. for a while at least :)
Happy New Year!!!

Merry Christmas, Happy New Year

My mother says im impolite
My grandmother says im unladylike
My boyfriend thinks im stubborn
My friend thinks im obsessed over my weight
My roomie says i can never wake up in the morning (really, who wants to wake up seven for 3 hours of math??)
My coursemate says i do wiered things WTF??ME???WIERED THINGS???
My unimates think less of me cos i am what you call ang moh sai - ENGLISH SHIT
MY mother says i could do better
My boyfriend says i always want to do better
My friends say i cant do anything myself
The girls stayin below me think i spend too much time watchin movies
My C++ lecturer hates me
My boyfriend says i never listen
A friend says i think too much
My dad says i treat the house like a hotel
My mom says im fat
My classmate says i worry too much
And it just keeps on comin..

So what am i anyway?

My dog loves me.

COLD

Its a freakin cold Tuesday morning... and im freezin my ass off in the com lab.. Strange, how the connection here is so, so much faster then what we have in out rooms.. Oh god, it so cold i cant think straight.

Ive been bitchin and stressing myself out over my damn design project and i finally got the second draft done yesterday. Heres a fantasy : The other so called lame ass group member comes up to me and bugs me whether the project is done, not even offering to help. I explode in front of the whole class, let out all the mental anguish ive been having, i yell at him so that everyone knows just how much of a loser he is, he sits down and shuts up like an idiot, my lecturer fails him, everyone in the class applauds and he falls through a big hole in the earth. Sounds good??

I spent this morning in my bed, debating if i should go for class.. Its RAINING and its COLD. Its a good day to sleep in. But goodness prevails... i only skipped one hour :) Another 3days to christmas. Which means another 4 days till Hui Min is back from US .. I wonder how much has changed since then. Hmmm....I cant wait for christmas to come this year :) The year has passed so fast, its almost the middle of my second sem here in Parit Buntar. This is what i was thinking last night :

1. Nasi Lemak
2. Maggi-Goreng-Ayam-Tambah-Telur-Atas?
3. Burger Ayam Special
4. Maggi-Sup-Ayam-tambah-telur-atas
5. Brownies and Ice Cream
6. Vodka Lime
7. AK 47
8. CREPES
9. Waffles and Ice Cream
10. CHICKEN
11. CHocolate Digestives
12. Ban CHien Kuih
13. Curry Mee
14. Tempura Fish
15. White Chocolate Latte
16. Spaghetti
17. Maxim Egg Tarts
18. Roti Tisu
19. Nasi Kandar Pertama
20. Segas Graveyard and fish fingers
21. Super Moist Chocolate cake

Yes, I was hungry. It rained from six to around eight last night, and it would have been the day there was no nasi lemak and the week where i didnt stock up on biscuits. Sigh. So i starved. IM HUNGRY. Time for Fluid Mechanics. Cheers!

I NEED ICE CREAM

I have come to HATE doing group work. Id rather do more work and let it be my own work, than do slighly less and have to carry people through it. I was talking to a friend over ice cream today, who was is somewhat the same predicament as me. Dont want to let the group members just pick of you, but no choice. Cos if they fail, we fail. Anyway, she brought up the fact that girls are supposed to be the weaker sex, but we end up doing all the work. Which made me think... doesnt that make us the weaker sex then?? Getting pushed around and made to do all the shit work for nothing.. Wait, not for nothing, for people to pick off, which is ten times worse.. So are we the weaker people for getting shoved around? Is it because of our conciences, our responsibilities?

Once again, i am awake... Having to once again to some last minute shit on some last minute design project. Again. I will be so glad when this is over. Takes up more time than studying actually would. Havent touched my books..heck havent even bought em yet. This is NOT a good start to the sem. I was as Ishuets house last night... This is something new i learnt : 1. Peanut butter and banana Ban Chien Kuih is not only pretty good, but also pretty filling and 2. Islams are not supposed to use condoms. (??) Can anyone verify that for me??

Fifth week of uni. I still have no textbook. Christmas is coming!!!!

Seven cups of KopiTiam coffee should be made illegal

FIve cups of coffee can do odd things to you.
It late, sort of and im dead tired and im still sitting here trying to owrk on my design project but im not noticeably any further along then when i was when i started. Im tired, and im grumpy and on top of that my back aches..
I think i overdosed on the caffeine... cant exactly think too straight anymore, which i can see by the huge amount of spelling errors i have made so far.. whoo hooo.. caffeine high.. ahaha..

i am tired. Either my body or my brain is tired, i cant figure out which one... I took the morning campus bus back today which was so packed that i consider myself luck i got a place to sit. And when all i wanted to do was gfet a liilte shut eye it had to be that a bunch of extremely loud foreign students, arabs i think? had to be sitting/standing around me... and theu kjust HAD to talk really loud. Or it seemed really loud to me.. Yes, i was annoyed. Very. Then i had to get stuck on a traffic jam on the bridge, therfore missing my chance to get a ride home from campus.. which meant i had to rely on our so wonderful public transport system called the mini bus. Aquashed in a mini bus carrying a sack and a brick is someting i could do without.

Im tired... and i not tired..actually i dont know what i am. I am going to bed, i refuse to count the amount of hours i have slept this week cos its a disturbing thought. Gotta get up early tomorrow to drop my mom off..

If youre reading this darling im sorry..

Caffeine High

You know how i last bitched about Wednesdays here?

I have come up with a reason to like Wednesdays.. at least pasrt of Wednesdays. On Wednesday mornings, my seniors have early class and my roomie has Japanese .. which means everyone gets up before me and leaves before me. When its still dark. Which means i can not only sleep in after waking up (i overslept my classes before) BUT i get the room to myself. So therefore i can go take a bath, wrap myself in a towel, walk to my room... then stand naked under the fan!!!!!! Yes, its a luxury here.. and to those who get to dry themselves in the comfort of their own rooms, you have no idea how much you can miss it. Call me weired, but i just dont like the feeling of having to put on clean clothes when you havent been properly dried by the blast of cool air coming from a fan. So i have a reason to like Wednesday mornings... Its my free morning.

Been up all night so far doing my damn design project - an auto disable syringe. I was scouring the net, looking for feasible design concepts when i came across this line:

"..the product was developed after two years of extensive research and trailing by our dedicated team.."

I read it out to my partner Hanxen (we were having an audio conversation courtesy of MSN) and for some reason it struck us both as super funny that people have spent years on their product while we have to hand in our draft by monday. And that we slackers who havent a single clue on how a retracting mechanism works will pick off their hardwork, pass it in and expect the lecturer to believe we designed it.

I think ive been awake for two long.. Or maybe its the caffeine... But up to three cups a day is quite safe... so i should be fine.. i think?? I have this really bad feeling im gonna oversleep again tomorrow.. or rather today..My body is shutting down on me. But my brain is still awake. Ever had the feeling where you're not asleep yet not awake? Where you want your hand to move but you cant move it?? Im hungry. Oh yeah.. coffee flavoured milk tastes no where near as good as the regular canned coffee.. and canned coffee tastes no where near as good as the coffee straight form the coffee shop that costs like a dollar. Nescafe three in one doesnt even come close.

Enough, enough. Oyasumi Nasai.

Fried Porridge and Brakes?

Another day has gone by. My mind in chock full of everything i'll ever need to know about anti lock braking systems (did you know they were first invented for aircrafts??). My mind today is so saturated with junk on ABS that i spent most of the time on MSN today typing break as brake. I have one more design project to go then im done!! For now, that is..

Its late, well not quite that late but considering the so generous amount of sleep ive been getting these past few days, its late enough for me to turn in and go to bed. BUT my seniors, who apparently have no morning classes on Tuesdays have decided to have a little pyjama party and watch movies tonight. As far as i can tell, its Polar Express right now.. I havent watched it yet, but i'm hearing it already. Haih..

Went out for dinner today.. with my seniors, you know the whole little 'family'? Anyways, im guessing its cos its the last sem for the finals year students.. too bad, i really like my final year senior.. she always talks to me and smiles whenever i bump into her. Siew Yong is currently wrapped up in/with (??) her boyfriend, i hope i am not as... well i cant think of a word but you get the meaning? Anyways, went all the way down to Kedah.. this little place called Serdang (hey theres another Serdang). Its about a 40 minute drive from where i am, and it kinda reminds me exactly of Langkawi.. Long, dark winding roads with trees on one side and empty fields in the other.. you can see the sillouhette of hills against the night sky and there arent any lights. Imagine.. all the way there to eat .. Fried Porridge. Ever heard of fried porridge?? Cos i never till today. Its like this brown mush, kinda resembing oats, or baby food or something even worse..but it tastes pretty good.. And we had the usual dishes .. about six or seven of em.. and the bill came to RM112 .. I dont know if thats supposed to be cheap cos i think its pretty expensive but hey, its food. And they serve the fish in a fish shaped dish! Yes, i find that amusing for some reason..

Eleven days to Christmas!!! I cant wait! And seventeen more days till this year ends and a new one comes. I look back on this year and its hard to imagine so much has happened in the space of just a year.. how much ive grown, how much ive gone through, how much ive changed.. how much things have changed. I dont know if it was a good year or an average year or a not so good year.. but i learnt plenty.. So i guess thats something, aint it? We'll see what next year brings...

Time to try to go to bed.. Im already known as the girl who is perpetually sleepy and late for class..

Why

This is the most commonly used word in my vocab : WHY

If that word was never invented, then i would never have known it therefore would never have and probably wont be getting myself into so much cow manure. I was the annoying little ked who asked why to everything. I never stopped asking why cos i wanted to know. My mom used to get so annoyed by me that she ended up saying something along the lines that I ask too much nonsense, and i should find someone else and ask. Somewhere along the way, the little kid stopped asking questions out loud. They now just parade around in my mind, hence causing massive headaches.

WHY