Like an Onion?

Im slowly falling apart, piece by piece under the pressure of too much work, too much stress and not enough sleep (damn uni life.. whoever said uni years were the best of you life werent mech students in usm). And at the same time, so are my PC speakers. ARghh.. my trusty harmon kardons have finally reached the end of their life span. I need a new pair of speakers. Sob Sob.

My eyebags have eyebags. Even more sobs.

Finals are comin and i still know nothing about plane stress or Mohrs circle or biaxial bending or eccentrically loaded members. Its times like these where i dont know what possessed me to pursue an honours degree in mechanical engineering. I swear, i should have stuck to my original plan and taken interior design .. or baking.

Far cry from engineering, huh?

Neway, a couple of incidents happened this week which all involved someone(or some people) taking others for granted. I sat back and pondered over it, and i have come to realise that the longer you know someone (or more accurately, the better you know someone) the more likely you are to take him/her for granted. I guess its only in human nature to assume (how i hate that word now) the other party should be able to understand, after knowing you so long. But it shouldnt be that way .. you should know where your loyalty lies. And you should know whats really important to you. And i guess its disappointing to realise that someone will (and is?) taking you for granted.. and even more so that you make excuses to yourself.

Only Words..

Its been a bitch of a week, with things comin one after another after another. Doesnt help that i ended up sick by monday morning (ugh, presentation at 8.30am with no voice) and i stayed sick for the next couple of days. Darn flu, im blaming in on Kar Loon. My powers of recovery are amazing though so after spending about 15 hours sleeping (with a bathroom trip in between) i turned out fine.

This week has been jammed pack with assingments, test, extra classes and presentations but that wouldnt be the only reason why this whole week gave me a major headache and big puffy eyes. There were a couple of inccidents which made me stop, think and review my current situation. Its not easy when youre pushed away. Its not easy to have to come to a point where you realise you arent what you once were .. its not easy to come to look in the mirror and realise what you have become. Even more so when you hate what you turned into. Then you wonder 'what happened to me? And its not easy to have to think if everything is worth it. The world kinda comes crashing down on you once you realise that things you were once so certain of are not certain anymore. Its not that simple to just go on and pretend nothing happend.

After a few days of mulling things over in solitude, i have come to realise its not my fault. And that there are some things which i have no control of. There is a middle path to everything, and there is no need for me to feel guilt for wanting more time .. or wanting company .. or sympathy (i know la, damn manja).

Sticks and stones may break my bones; but words will never hurt me.

Whoever said that was obviously lying. Cos words hurt .. and i still maintain my stand that noone should ever deserve to be yelled and cursed in a fit of anger. Not even a dog.

Mechatronics Project - Finished at Last!

As you may probably have figured out, ive been really busy the past week with various projects and assignments. But i just had to show off our completed mechatronics project.

Task: to build a system using a conveyor belt, single or double acting cylinders, a PLC, valves and sensors and to write its program.

It took us one whole day of skipping classes, just to build it, never mind the concept and the program etc etc.. and im very, very proud of it, k? Might not look like much (what to do, low budget mah..) but hey, it works .. and its cute. I'll put a movie clip just to show off oncw ivw converted it to a .swf file cos my pic host doesnt accept avi formats. Dang. Anyway, just praise me, make me happy k:)

Our wiring for the PLC. Complicated leh .. we're very proud of it, no help at all :) We skipped classes to stay in the FMS room all day to work on it.. bad idea cos three hours into the project i got a call from my roomie - thermo quiz!! We had to run from our building all the way to the lecture theatre..and me in my roomies shoes, one size to small..

One last pic..couldnt resist. had to go scavenging around for all those parts.. it pays to make friends with the technicians :) Finished at last.. so happy :) .. now all thats left is about a ton of paperwork.. sigh..i should have just taken up baking.. ive found more than one person willing to be my silent partner..eheheh

The fourth years were there doing there robotics and automation project... massive machinary .. but they assemble these really cute little houses.

Pics!!

I know, i know .. way overdue but ive been busy. Really, really busy. My dean is proud to say that second year mechanical students are the busiest on campus. I, however dont find it quite that fun. I turn green with envy when i see the students from materials and mineral resources free every afternoon.

Anyway, i celebreated my birthday last week.. just a small thing with the girls.. Chai came back from KL (i didnt know she was comin) and boy was i surprised when her car pulled up at Ishuets house. First thing i thought was ??Chai Yin driving terri? Terri borrowed chai's car?? hahaha.. imagine my surprise when Chai popped out .. *Thanks Chai!* And i had a small celebration just with Jon the week before that :). Thanks to all of you who made growing a year older in the middle of a jungle not as bad as it could have been *hugz*

We went for dinner in Tambun.. Being girls, we had no idea that there was a football match at Batu Kawan that night.. it took forever to reach there, cos of the jam and two accidents. Oh yea .. we have no idea who those two dudes are standing in the pic. A mystery... jeng jeng jeng

And i just had to put in the pic of yu ming and drey.. we call it " the two lesbian friends" eheheh..

This is Chai, on the way back from Tambun. We were bored.. its a long drive k..

This shot was taken while trying to set the timer on the cam. Notice Chai is the only one staring at the camera..

This is what a group pic is supposed to look like.

And since it was just us girls and in ishuets house, we decided to try our hand at mixing drinks.

Look at our cocktails!! Arent they a pretty colour? From left to right you see our version of Lemon Drop, Vodka Orange, Sangaria, Green Froggy, Ishuets creation and Screwdriver

Self explanatory.. but i think pics look so funny without captions..

See Mun all red and happy :)

Our booze bottles and the little thingy that sat on top of my cake

Drinking makes you hungry so we went to McDonalds :) Praise the dude who came up with the idea of a 24 hour drive thru!!!

This is me .. in the car.. at McDs .. with Yu Mings foot next to me. And i never noticed it was there

Thank you thank you!! I had a great time that week, and the week before that (Love you baby..)

More pics available, but since im not too sure about the nature of the shots .. i wont be posting them up. And i only got the pics from chais camera today, im much too lazy to upload them.

Loads of work to be done.. USM SUCKS!! USM ONLY WAITS TILL THE LAST POSSIBLE MOMENT TO TELL YOU THAT THEY'VE SCHEDULED TWO TESTS, ONE VIVA, AND TWO PRESENTATIONS ALL IN THE SPACE OF FIVE DAYS! ARGGHHH!!1

Ahem. As you see, im quite stressed. Excuse me.

Fuzzy

Its 1.34 in the morning .. i should have started on my strength of materials paper by now .. but im still here. Hmmm.. i procrastinate way, way too much. Bad habit, i know. Sigh.

This sem, ive had projects or assignments for every single subject. And out of all those ive had to redo three of em a day or two prior to handing them up because I DIDNT READ THE INSTRUCTIONS! Or because some wise ass decided to go up to the lecturer to clarify things and gave the lecterer the bright idea of either a) having more criteria or b) adding something else to do. And right now, i and a few friends would happily take my trusty ten year old car and run the culprit over. And over. And over. Hahahahahah...

Okay .. im gonna hide my horns ..

Okay .. back to work. I have three more things to do before i am (hopefully) free!! All i need to complete now is a four page hand written hand illustrated good handwriting (damn the lecturer) paper on strain gauges, a three page BM presentation on petrol prices (and memorise it too..) and a conveyor belt system for my mechatronics.

I hate it here.

Happy Birthday to Me

Happy Birthday to Me!

Yup .. its that time of the year again .. im now officially 21 years old.. How scary.. So this weekend after i put aside all my projects and all my assignments, its time to celebrate :)

Another day ,. Just breathe

Hmm.. another day passes and it brings me no closer to the end of my projects. Sigh.

I dont really like birthdays. My birthdays, that is. Im not sure why though. Maybe its cos birthdays have never been a thing in my household. Actually, all types of celebrations arent really the in thing in my house. Hmm.. And as i got older, i could never celebrate my birthday cos even though im lucky enough to be born a Libra (Libra rules!!) im cursed to have my birthday fall smack in between some sort of exam every single year. PMR... SPM .. STPM .. trials .. finals.. you name it.. So yea .. guess i just aint used to celebrating it.

But maybe its cos im here, in PB .. i guess a birthday is like christmas or valentines or new years .. just those times where you really dont wanna be alone .. cos its one of those days that are supposed to mean something. Or maybe its just the fact that another year has passed and i still have accomplished nothing. Whatever it may be, it doesnt change the fact that im still stuck here (ive now found four people who wanna transfer out of this hell hole) and im still alone (banyaknya projek untuk disiapkan. .. woooo...).

Obituary

Pig was brutally mauled to death by one of the damn hostel cats. He was sitting in his cage and the damn cat still got him. I dont understand how. I'm gonna give that cat a damn good kick if i ever see it again. I miss my Pig. I really, really loved him. He's never gonna squeak to me in the mornings, or stick his nose out of the cage for me to pet. Its not fair. Its never fair.

Jon left for KL an hour ago. Its not fair either .. the moment i get used to him being around again he has to go back.

Surprise surprise

Its been one hell of a week so far. For the past two and a half weeks ive been waking up at somewhere between 4 to 5 am every morning in uni. Regardless of what time i get up. Its annoying .. now i wake up everyday feeling more tired then when i go to bed.

Been trying to pack all my work into this week so i can finish it and go to watch Stomp. Yes, i wanna go that badly.. because of that, ive slaved over my mechatronics assignment ( i finished my circuit design!!), i slaved over my thermo tutorial and ive been killing myself trying to translate pages and pages about the abrasive machining process into english. Its torture, i tell you.. try translating this :

abrasive machining is a material removing process where the abrasive grits interact with the work surface at high cutting speeds and shallow penetration depths.

So i dig into a dictionary and come out with this:

abrasive = pelelas
machining = pemesinan
process = proses

therefore

abrasive machining process = proses pemesinan pelalas ??!!??

Argghh!!!! And i have to do twenty four pages of this crap?? *(%&^

Sigh. Anyhow, i guess it doesnt really matter anymore. They had to spring this up on my today : test on friday morning. Which completely ruins my plans to watch stomp this time around. Haih ... looks like i'll never get the chance...

Anyway, its Michelle's birthday today!

Oo... so many birthdays in september .. Happy birthday girl!!

Sexually explicit?

I found these online .. completely hilarious!!!

Hahaha. .. superboy getting spanked by his daddy for being a bad boy ... Something just sounds so wrong. Superboy as the whipped bondage slave ...i wonder what he did to deserve the spanking.

Hahahahahha

its not fair...

I am so so PISSED. Females can be so petty. My English teacher hates me. And it shows when it came to her reviews of our English oral presentations.

Guess what? Mine doesn’t even have a rating. When she reached my name :

Hmmm .. Lisa .. well … Eye contact good, voice good, confidence okay … but you need to work on your enthusiasm.

Guess what? She said nothing about enthusiasm to anyone else. Nope. . all they got were comments on there grammar, eye contact, voice .. WHY ME?

Yea well… apparently my speakin has grammatical flaws as well. BUT guess what? Second best presenter was someone who says things like ‘ Today I would like to share with you about my topic which is the secret to happy’

WTF???? Even a high school student should be able to point out the glaringly obvious error in that sentence. There were similar mistakes throughout her presentation too. Funnily enough, my teacher said nothing about her grammar. Just the usual ‘eye contact good, voice good, confidence good ..’ Tell me.. am I bitching over nothing?? What is the mark of a good presentation then? That you have the ability to suck up to the teacher and win her heart? Oh yea .. and fyi I have nothing against the girl.. shes really nice.. I do, however have a very big thing against the third best presenter .. damn apple polisher. Her voice wasn’t all that loud and she was probably less enthusiastic than I was. I quote the teacher ‘you need to work on your eye contact, you tend to stare only at one certain spot. A few grammatical errors but its normal’ so … remind me again .. why is she rated third? Damn bitch. Now just so you don’t think im full of myself, I did go around asking what other more objective people thought of my presentation. Feedback was that my presentation was pretty good and they were surprised about the choice of second best.

IT NOT FAIR.

To satisfy me (or shut me up) Kar Loon suggest we go see the lecturer and find out what she’s looking for in a good presentation (read: COMPLAIN). Its so hot. And im so pissed its making me feel even hotter. Which is why im sitting here without a shirt on. Im pissed off and I cant be bothered anymore.

Happy Birthday!!

Its Audreys birthday today!!

Happy 21st Bday Drey!

This is the girl ive known definitely for more than half my life.. all the way back to kindy.. i must have been like four? She celebrated her birthday last weekend in her aunts house down in tanjung tokong. We were all there to make alot of noise as usual .. hahaha .. so cheers girl.. hope you have a blessed birthday!

Oh yea ... as promised .. pics of my newly altered head:

Yes .. its me .. a little bit blurry though (what to do, using webcam mah .. ). The position is a little odd cos im lying on my bed with one hand sticking out to hold the curtains shut so that sun doenst come in and i end up looking all 'glowy'.

Just like this ..

STOMP

I wanna go i wanna go i wanna go!!!!!

Any takers?

Woo Hoo

Hey hey!! Ive finally gotten around to doing something with my hair. Result? A whole brand new hairstyle! What started out as a simple trip to the hairdressers to get highlights turned out into much more than that. I have problems saying no to a flyer, how can i refuse an enthusiastic heirdresser?? Anyways, pics will be up soon .. And even if you dont like it say you like it!! Cos i already did it and now i need to fish for compliments :)

Its TzeLins birthday today.

Happy 21st Bithday Tzelin!!

Folks, this is someone who can always be counted on to make me smile .. best wishes girl .. hope everything works out allright for you. Cheers!

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Although im trying to keep the blog uppdated, i dont have much to sya today. SO much has happened, yet i still have nothing to say.

It hasnt been a very good day, or night for that matter and i really dont want to wallow in my miseries and rant on my blog so .. nothing to say today.

Maybe the next update will have more substance.

My friend told me that tears that flow from different parts of your eyes mean different things. I was wondering though .. if tears are bodily fluid, could you cry yourself to death? Cry till you dehydrate and shrivel up like a prune? Assuming of course, that you dont have any liquid intake. From the first law of thermodynamics, net energy applied to a system is equal to the net work done by the system. Does it run true for bodily functions?

Waiting .. and waiting .. and waiting..

Oh my god .. the connection from my room in uni is so damn slow ... so slow .... i managed to memorise my presentation while waiting for my pages to load. So slow .. if you try to download anything not from the network ... it hangs halfway .. so slow ... my msn messages dont reach the other person .. so slow .. that its like poking my eyes out with a spork ... its torture i tell you .. its slower than my dial at back at home. I cant upload pics to my blog. I cant download codecs for my pc. I cant even update my virus definations. ARGGHHHHHH!!!!

So, in between classes today (see, i don ponteng di!) i ran over to the pc lab. Loads of people here today so i sat at the nearest pc without scouting around. I dont know if its my damn bad luck or somthing but IT TOOK LIKE SIX MINUTES FOR THE DAMN PC JUST TO START UP!!! I could take a nap in the time between pressing the on button and waiting for everything to load. Its disgraceful. Speaking of disgraceful ...

I have fat in places where i didnt have before. What was once hard muscle is now .. well .. not that firm anymore. Im still thinking if i should be bothered and actually get off my ass and do something about it. Its hard staying with skinny roomies.

Good Tidings fr Langkawi

My baby is back from Langkawi and came back with goodies for me!!! Yay yay .. Thanks!!

Checking inventory .. this is what i have :

1. A giant bag of M&M's
2. One bar of Cadbury Old Jamaica Rum and Raisin
3. One bar of Cognac filled chocolate
4. One bar of Cointreau filled chocolate
4. One bottle of Absolut Vodka
5. Essential oil scented candles

Yes, my baby didnt forget about me .. and i now have plenty of choocies to munch on and a bottle of vodka for those sad lonely times.. Thanks!

He's gone back to uni..its something i dont think i'll ever quite get used to. Its hard.. all the coming and going and having to consider the time factor. I miss him already. Oh well.. Three weeks to go ..

Am i? Am i not?

Its the end of my hols (what, already?) and its time to go back to uni (damn). Anyways, though i havent touched any of the work i brought back to do, i have managed to meet up with loads of people, ive had a blast :).

Chai came back a couple of days ago and because of her and her itch, we went to chill out. A last minute thing, where we moved from sitting at gurney drive to dancing in chill out. Oh yea, and i didnt get stopped this time, haha.. No drinks (no money to buy la) just few girls out to dance and have a good time. Anyways, ive been called an awful lot of things in my life but never this : I was dancing and some guy leaned over to Chai and asked if i was stoned cos i was dancing and dancing .. ( Duh, takkan go club and stand there ah?) I still dont know if i should be deeply insulted or not. Hmmm..

Looks like i'll never have to pop pills to get stoned, apparently i can do it pretty convinvingly with nothing except a bottle of blueberry kampai.

Dont read this

As i sit here at home once again by myself on my holiday that isnt a holiday, i wonder : why am i sitting here at home by myself? A couple of years ago, i was somewhat happening, or at the very least i didnt spend all my free time in front of a computer screen. Now, i have to correct the few people left who are still under the illusion that im happening. What happened and where am i going?

Whenever i roam about alone, or with my girlfriends, at least seventy percent of the time someone will ask me the dreaded question: wheres your boyfriend? And each time, it gets harder and harder for me to say 'oh, hes out with his friends' while trying to convince them and myself that it doesnt really matter. When it does. So, how much time is enough time? Some people think that the couples spend all their time together (yes, someone just said so five minutes ago). So does that mean its just a myth? Or am i some sort or exception? How much time is reasonable? Is it hoping for too much that i get to spend some time with him, given the fact that hes going back sunday morning? Or am i supposed to sit on the sidelines like a cheerleader and be supportive and understanding that he needs to spend most of his time with the guys? Maybe im under the delusion that the guy is supposed to be prince charming. makes it even worse that i see couples every where and people i know in a relationship spend alot of their time together.

Argh. Its getting to complicated. I need to go out. Or at least get myself stoned to the point where i dont know nuts.

Celebrating Independence

Its the eve of Independence Day. Its roughly ten pm, Terri has just dropped me home and will drop ishuet home shortly. We left Gurney still clad in shorts and slippers about the same time everyone started coming. I see a whole load of people, mostly younger than i am. Someones sister, someones brother, juniors .. all who wave and say hi and continue on there way in as we make our way out. Get out before the crowd comes and the jam starts. I guess its a process of aging. Sad. Almost dissappointing, really. But then again, its dissappointing for other reasons which you may or may not know but that doesnt really matter cos its not my point.

So do you gracefully withdraw yourself from overrated social gatherings as you grow up? Or do you go, and hang on to whatever left while you still can? A year ago, i was probably there with the crowd, two years .. i was probably still there. . next year? Probably not. Same goes for new years and other less meaningful celebrations.

Oddly enough while i spent me night at home with my laptop the questions come one by one : why you still at home? not going out tonight? what you doing at home along? etcetera et cetera .. So, what am i doing at home? I dont know.. not exactly quite happy being there but no much of a choice i guess.. time to settle down? I dont know .. maybe i never will be able to settle. Maybe i need to keep on running. Maybe people dont really settle, they jsut find others to run with..

See Mun calls my unwillinges to sit at home hong sou. I just contribute it to the moles on my feet.