Im Lost

Out of the many things in this lifetime that i fear, one of the most prominent fear in my life is if being lost. Maybe its some psychological thing left over from my childhood (you know, geting lost in shopping complexes) but yea.. im scared of being lost. Not just lost as in i dont know how to get somewhere kind of lost. The lost where you dont know whats going on, you dont know what to do, you dont know where to go. You dont know why, you dont know how. And you cant do shit about it. The feeling that you, your life and everything surrounding you in just spinning out of control. You cant get where you want to go. You cant find who you want to find. You cant get to your safe place. And all you can do it sit there like an idiot, go round in circles and watch everything whizz by you. Which might explain my obsessive need to always be doing something. To keep busy. Even when i dont know what to do i at least fake it and look like im doing something.
Makes me feel less stupid somehow