I am selfish..

Its my 27th day of work. Im finding harder and harder to drag myself to work everyday and im finding less and less things to do. No drive. Nothing to look forward to, i guess. Things tend to get like this for awhile after he leaves. And i wish he hadnt. Yes, i know im selfish but i still dont see why he had to go. Oh well.. his choice.

Finally broke out of my coccoon though.. Counting the days till i can finally say goodbye to my job.. till he comes back.. and unfortunately till i have to go back to uni. Still faced with the difficult decision.. should i transfer? Will it be worth it?? Will it be better or worse?? I dont know... I cant say... Can only think.

I think im PMS-ing. I WANT TO BE SELFISH. I WANT HIM TO COME BACK