I am, once again freakin cashless.
Damn.
My meal allowance isnt here yet. And i forgot i was out of cash ... haven't been out to the city centre for the past two days and i didnt go tonight so i cant get to an ATM.
Currently cashless and hungry. Damn. I could scab a loan but i dont really want to. Kate will cook rice for me, but i dont feel like it. And im too lazy to get up and go out now that i've taken a shower and im dressed in my jammies. The boys are ordering pizza (again!) but i dont feel like it and it will take like an hour to reach here anyway. I dont know what it want. . .
Why la?
Yoghurt for dinner, anyone?
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Monday, August 18, 2008
Toaster Waffles
Okay.. Well . ..
I went home for 3-4 days of non stop activity (obvious from the lack of updates and puffy eyes), drove down to KL on Sunday, got my stuff done and hopped onto an all night flight.
And now im in Doha, Qatar. Again.
Sitting in my new room (moved to 2819!) where the AC is much much colder (freaking freezing), the window is bigger (nice and bright) but im missing my fridge and wastepaper basket.
I have got to look into that.
I had to sneak down to my old room and steal all my food. So now im sitting here, eating toaster waffles (which by the way are pretty good) waiting for time to pass till its 8.55AM and i head down to catch the bus to get to the base.
I am SO tired, i just arrived this morning. But what to do . . the price to pay for going home. It was worth it :)
People miss me. Its nice to be missed.
Missing all of you! If you're reading this then you know im safe and alive and not in the back of some strangers car
Till the next update, hugs and kisses
I went home for 3-4 days of non stop activity (obvious from the lack of updates and puffy eyes), drove down to KL on Sunday, got my stuff done and hopped onto an all night flight.
And now im in Doha, Qatar. Again.
Sitting in my new room (moved to 2819!) where the AC is much much colder (freaking freezing), the window is bigger (nice and bright) but im missing my fridge and wastepaper basket.
I have got to look into that.
I had to sneak down to my old room and steal all my food. So now im sitting here, eating toaster waffles (which by the way are pretty good) waiting for time to pass till its 8.55AM and i head down to catch the bus to get to the base.
I am SO tired, i just arrived this morning. But what to do . . the price to pay for going home. It was worth it :)
People miss me. Its nice to be missed.
Missing all of you! If you're reading this then you know im safe and alive and not in the back of some strangers car
Till the next update, hugs and kisses
Friday, August 08, 2008
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I've been staring at the blinking cursor for a while.
So many thoughts swirling around my head, yet I can't pin them down and put them into words. Or maybe I dont want to.
Things seem so much more real when they're out there in black and white for the whole world to see. And maybe if i say nothing and pretend that everything is okay, I'll have more pink days than blue and purple.
Im hiding. What am I hiding from? I dont know.
What has changed? I dont know.
Too many questions. I have no answers.
This is harder to manage than I thought. Alot of shit this week.
Blank stare again. Just breathe.
I wish I could just leave everything behind me and start again. Just pretend.
Dammit, I need to get to the happy place.
So many thoughts swirling around my head, yet I can't pin them down and put them into words. Or maybe I dont want to.
Things seem so much more real when they're out there in black and white for the whole world to see. And maybe if i say nothing and pretend that everything is okay, I'll have more pink days than blue and purple.
Im hiding. What am I hiding from? I dont know.
What has changed? I dont know.
Too many questions. I have no answers.
This is harder to manage than I thought. Alot of shit this week.
Blank stare again. Just breathe.
I wish I could just leave everything behind me and start again. Just pretend.
Dammit, I need to get to the happy place.
Friday, August 01, 2008
Mini Hobnobs
Crap. I just lost like half a page of ramblings.
It doesnt matter. They were last nights depressing thoughts anyway, and I refuse to rehash them and spoil another day.
Its my day off today. Kate is studying which is making me feel guilty so I need to study as well. I'll drag her out for dinner.
I keep nibbling because I'm bored. Its been so long since I've touched any formal learning material and/or used my brains (har har) that I simply cant sit still long enough to get anything done. I am such a lazy bum.
I've been eating chocolate like almost everday. (It helps me through the rough times, the sleepy times, bla bla bla). Can someone please tell me if I'm getting fat? Or am I just being paranoid?
Bah. Whatever. I need some retail therapy. Or a little bit of love.
Oh, its already August and I'm at day 26 here.
It doesnt matter. They were last nights depressing thoughts anyway, and I refuse to rehash them and spoil another day.
Its my day off today. Kate is studying which is making me feel guilty so I need to study as well. I'll drag her out for dinner.
I keep nibbling because I'm bored. Its been so long since I've touched any formal learning material and/or used my brains (har har) that I simply cant sit still long enough to get anything done. I am such a lazy bum.
I've been eating chocolate like almost everday. (It helps me through the rough times, the sleepy times, bla bla bla). Can someone please tell me if I'm getting fat? Or am I just being paranoid?
Bah. Whatever. I need some retail therapy. Or a little bit of love.
Oh, its already August and I'm at day 26 here.