You don't love someone they're beautiful.
They're beautiful because you love them.
Its true you don't know what you've been missing until it arrives
but its also very true that you don't know what you've got until its gone.
Sending rainbows to Bangi :)
I never wanted to grow up. The story of Peter Pan always intrigued me. And I always wanted to be a Wendy so I could fly away to Neverland and never grow up. So I would never have to worry. So I could laugh the childish laugh and think happy thoughts for the rest of my life. So I could open my arms wide and embrace life with the innocence and hope of a child, forever dreaming of the happy things to be. So I would never know what it was like to be lied to, to be bullied, to be stepped on and run over. I wouldn’t have to pay bills, to get a job, to hold responsibility. So I would never have to think the evil twisted thoughts of an adult.
But I wasn’t Wendy. And I never found Peter Pan, though God knows I tried.
So now I am the adult with the evil twisted mind.
I’m still looking for Peter Pan though….
I have changed. I don’t know when, I don’t know why and I don’t know how. In what way I don’t know. I don’t know if it’s a good thing, I don’t know if it’s a bad thing. I don’t know if its better not to care, not to bother. About what people think, about what people say.
I don’t know if its better to do things by myself, my own way, then to stick around with people im not really sure of anymore.
I don’t know what to do.
I don’t know if I want to spend the rest of my life the way I am.
I don’t know if I will change some more.
I don’t know if I want to.
Im twenty this year. There are still a lot of things I don’t know. And better yet, I don’t know if I even want to know.
Ignorance can be bliss at times.
